Week before Gannon's death - LS' employer decides to terminate her due to finding info about her that was not included on her resume. Supposedly she wouldn't have found out that she was terminated until the following week, but let's just imagine for a moment that she did know. I actually think this is pretty likely. Word spreads. Or she may have had a meeting with her supervisor to discuss inconsistencies, but a decision to let her go might have to be run through certain HR channels and therefore not done right away. Anyway, she might have had a pretty good idea that she was outta there.
My question... Have we heard exactly what her employer found out about her? Is it possible that it was something pretty baaaad that she didn't want Al to ever know? Did Gannon somehow find out? And therefore was a risk for telling Al?
I mean, maybe I'm really reaching here. That's possible (I'm quarantined with my children, my imagination, and no wine after all). And I do believe she raged frequently. But I'm getting a feeling that she had thought about this for a while, not necessarily planning it, but had an idea to run with when she was pushed over the edge.
I'm familiar with unexpected rages from someone you wished loved you. It's so confusing and scary. My mother was very loving when I was small. Once I hit 10, 11 things changed drastically. I never knew what I would be facing each day when I came home from school. It was no way for a child to live. The best days were when she was gone when I got home. All the other days were varying levels of bad. But I never feared for my life. Maybe I should have. Maybe it was an idea my brain couldn't fathom.
This is getting long but has a point. The last time I saw my mom was four years ago. After decades of having a semi-normal, but fraught with confusion (the fog of being gaslighted) relationship, she lost her ever-loving mind. She went into a rage against me, saying the most incredible, crazy things. I was that little kid all over again. But this time I had a witness - my husband. He was completely dumbstruck. I don't know why I stayed there a second longer, but we still spent that night. I woke up just
knowing she was very unstable and
capable of killing me. I knew she had a gun in the house. And, worse, my children and husband were sound asleep. I came very close to getting everyone up and out in the middle of the night. I chose not to only to avoid a confrontation that might escalate things. I sat in the living room watching her bedroom door all night. Next morning, we were OUT. Haven't talked to her since, although she occasionally sends me hate filled emails.
Seriously had a point, but lost it... It's late. Maybe it will come to me later. Goodnight, WS. Have a drink for me and be thankful our sweet boy is away from that monster and can rest now. ❤