I lost my father to suicide. He was the nicest, kindest man and people loved him but he had depression over some life long issues involving giving children up for adoption at an early age because he was manipulated by his stepfather. Having worked in LE for years, I came to understand that people reaching that level of depression have crossed over into another level of reasoning that non depressed people can never understand and often dont try to.
When depressed at that level, those contemplating suicide are so low that they reason the world, their families and life in general would be better without them. They rationalize in their own depressed state of mind that they have failed in every way and that their continued presences hurts others. They are not reasoning on a normal level yet it makes sense to them. In most cases, they think they are doing the right thing. Remember they are operating in a depressed reasoning state. It is a different world of reason down there.
I saw all manner of officers arriving at suicides, cursing the vicitm for how he had hurt his family. I always stopped to say a prayer for the victim knowing full well just how his or her mind was not functioning normally when they finally committed the act. Yes, anger of such suicides is common but I believe in most cases, compassion for them is the order. You have to walk a mile in their shoes, and believe me I have. those who respond with the most anger, should perhaps look at themselves a bit closer as the root of that depression such as CA and KC
Im not talking about those that murder and then commit suicide to escape a life of prison. They are often just controlling to the last, their own criminal purposes. Im talking about the GA of the world who are just depressed, so very, very sad and lost in the shuffle and their level of sadness and depression has reached that other low many people never reach.
Tell me you wouldnt be depressed in this situation, having guilt over the sociopath daughter you raised and feeling estranged from your contolling wife and daughter with the media hounding you at every turn, reading sites like this slamming your every move and motive and reading how horrible ou are, your life likely changed forever. If you walk outside tomorrow and find the entire world of media has descended on you and you are confused, angry, sad and feeling absolutely helpless and you might have a clue. Until then. you might look up how to deal with depression, how it works and just how crippling it is.
From one who was adopted and yet found my father again, and one who has been there and back a few times and seen both sides.
