I stayed off the board for 48 hours after the verdict. I felt emotionally and spiritually shattered into a million pieces.
It's hard to explain such devastation - the first day I couldn't even speak at all - it was impossible to even comprehend the jury could come to such a verdict.
Then as much as I could handle, I listened to the talking heads saying the jury system brought a just verdict and justice system still works. I listened to two jurors give completely absurd reasons for their decisions. We didn't want to be responsible for giving her the death penalty was the most absurd at all. That has nothing to do with what their decision was. Death is for the penalty phase and it is the law that decides death, not them. Clearly they paid no attention to the evidence or their jury instructions. Absurd negligence..with no excuses that will ever even begin to justify their decisions.
Tonight I watched the NG 2 hour special on Caylee. It was hard to watch and listen to, but at least the TH on this program agreed, justice was not served on that day.
Maybe tomorrow morning for the first time I won't wake up in the middle of a dream about this case. I understand why I dream about it. My mind is trying to bring logic and peace to my brain and heart. I guess one day I will be resigned to both the blind superficiality of this jury and the loss of justice for Caylee.
I have to tell you, as spiritual as I am - karma can be damned! I don't care what happens to ICA. What I care about is that there will never be justice for a two and a half little girl, who was killed, murdered, wrapped in duct tape and thrown in the swamp to rot like a piece of garbage. It will always haunt me.
After three years standing for justice, we arrive at the day when justice becomes a file marked homicide - unsolved - closed. So talking heads, Just put a cork in it and please move on. You can ever say anything to make this right. Don't talk to me about justice. Not this time. Not for Caylee.
When there is no justice, there is no peace.
Remember that, Anthony Family.
Your words are my words. They are how I feel and how I would have expressed myself had I the talent.
When I think of this verdict, my mind shoots off in so many directions. Each leaving me feeling frustrated and powerless. I accept that we can not go back in time. What I mean is there will be no retrying this case. That part is over. That was a pill I found so hard to swallow, but swallow it I did. But that is not where the crux of where my frustration lies. Let me explain.
First, I am frustrated that Jose Baez was able throw out LIES in his opening statement. I do NOT accept that he did that in good faith. For those who did not follow this case and did not know the background, there are some who now believe as gospel that George had something to do with Caylee's death and that he and Lee raped and molested KC. Futher more, there are some TH's that further that notion when they KNOW it to be false!!!!! How is it that an officer of the court can perpetrate lies and NEVER have ANY intention of bringing forth any evidence?
And Roy Kronk.... What did that poor man EVER do??? My goodness he called 3 times and no one cared. Thank God he went back and found Caylee. And for his good deed, Baez filets him in court?? Are there not laws, rules, etc, against this??? How can this go unpunished??? If no one stands up to this, will it become acceptable practice? ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!
(On a sidenote, did it never occur to this braindead jury (yes, I said it) that JB NEVER asked RK about how he stole the body, took it home and then put it back with old, disintegrated duct tape? Did they never wonder why JB NEVER asked George what he did after he pulled Caylee from the pool??? Or why Lee was never asked about molestation? Did they not see that he took them for a ride??? Did they not see that he LIED to them, yet they trusted him??? I DO NOT GET IT!!!!!!:banghead: )
Sorry, I had to let that out....
I am also frustrated, by this jury. I am frustrated by the lack of commen sense and logic in society as a whole.
I am frustrated that I am told by the TH's that I cannot question this verdict.
I am frustrated that we now have revisionist history on TV. Right before the verdict most TH's were talking about how KC might be able to appeal on grounds of ineffective counsel, and now we hear how JB is brilliant. They ALL thought the SA case was "overwhelmimgly strong". "One of the strongest they have ever seen" Now we hear that they, "over charged" (even though there were lesser charges) or they didn't do this or didn't do that. They do this to CYA because they are to afraid to say what they know is truth. This jury DID NOT DO THEIR JOB!!!!
I, like you am frustrated that I am being told that it is wrong for me to criticize this jury!!!!!
I am frustrated that I have NO power to change the jury system. I personally think that there needs to be a class taught by the presiding judge or a video that is played prior to deliberations and then a test MUST be passed by each juror BEFORE deliberations so they know to a tee what the instructions and charges are. That they understand they must use ONLY the EVIDENCE before them. That reasonable dout is NOT "beyond a shadow of a doubt". That motive and COD do NOT have to be proven. But I have NO power to enact this. It frustrates me because I think it is sorely needed.
These are the things that frustrate me more than the 2 things that most would say should upset me overall; No justice for Caylee and KC gets to walk!
Funny enough, these 2 things I have found peace with.
First, while I shutter to think what Caylee endured at the hands of her mother, I KNOW that she is free. Free to run and play and swing in the arms of Jesus. She will not live a life of torture under KC. Some may think this wrong, but all things considered she is much better off, IMO. She lives free of fear and never to be abused again.
Secondly, prison would have been a cake walk fo KC compaed to her life outside. She will be shunned and eventually pennyless and WILL reoffend and she will always have to look over her shoulder, as LE will be on her like a hawk. She will not go quietly, but will be hounded all the days of here life. The court of public opinion will speak loud and clear and will find her GUILTY each and every day of her miserable life. That I can live with.
This whole thing will take some time to get over, but eventually we will. I am one though who likes to see changes made when needed and when possible. I believe this case SCREAMS the system is BROKEN!!!! If progress on that front can be made then my frusration will subside and turn into satisfaction. Any suggestions on how WE can make that happen?:waitasec:
