Hello everyone:greetings: ,
Ive been lurking for over a month and finally decided to join, Ive really enjoyed reading all your posts, the different viewpoints and fantastic sleuthing skills. Ive been following the trial too, and Im definitely a great admirer of Gerrie Nel, who is certainly doing his utmost to come to the truth and justice for Reeva Steenkamp and her loving family and friends.
I was once a fan of OP, watched several of his races, and applauded his athletic ability, witnessing on the tv screen that strong determination that led him to win his races and become an icon for SA and the disabled. But now
..:sigh:
After watching the trial so far and reading your insightful posts and thinking over OPs account of what happened, I do not believe his story to be reasonably possibly true.
This latest attempt to explain his bizarre behaviour on that night by being diagnosed with GAD by Dr V certainly is grasping at straws, imo. If OP is so terrified and fearful of intruders and the unknown lurking in every corner, why in his version would he rise from his bed without turning on the bedside lamp? IMO, he would do this instinctively, whether Reeva was awake or not (by his second account she was awake), so one point against him on that score.
Having GAD, wouldn't OP feel even more vulnerable hobbling around in the dark, moving fans, shutting balcony door, curtains and plunging his bedroom into pitch black darkness, and if thats not enough, fumbled around with jeans to cover red light that mysteriously bothered him only on THIS particular night? Wouldn't the red light comfort him, like safety led lights used for kids and adults afraid of the dark? Another point against him in my book, GAD is a constant, it doesn't come and go.
I just cant believe this whole darkness thing, it just doesn't ring true. Also, if he is constantly thinking about intruders, wouldn't he turn on the lights every opportune moment so passing outsiders or potential intruders are aware that he is home ( I mean, he is supposedly thinking of this threat constantly)? This of course is added to all his other failures to secure his property, like not locking away ladders or his car, not fixing window etc.
From there on in it just gets more unreal. IMO, there most definitely was an argument and OP lost control and Reeva retreated to the toilet cubicle. I dont believe Reeva would stay completely silent in his supposed scenario either, I think he feared making anymore conversation without slipping up and yet, this made his story even more unlikely.
One more thing, whenever we are in complete darkness, we use our hands to feel our way, OP would have instinctively touched Reeva when he reached for his gun and spoke to her in his low tone, if he did, he would discover she wasn't there. :banghead:
Sorry for babbling especially my very first post :blushing:, just had to get these thoughts all out. I look forward to continue reading your posts and contribute what I can and ask questions, there are just so many questions.
My opinion only. :twocents:
Thank you fellow websleuthers! BTW, love the smilies! :loveyou: