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2015
7th June - twins A&B born. LL not working.
8th June -
9.21am - LL received a text telling her 30wk twins born last night and asking her if she could work that evening.
Mel Taylor was baby A's designated nurse for the day shift.
7.22pm LL arrived for her night-shift handover.
8pm care of baby A handed over to LL.
8.26pm baby A crashed,
8.33pm no heart rate detected. Chest compressions continue.
8.58pm baby A was pronounced dead.
LL had been his nurse for less than an hour.
9th June -
LL's night-shift.
Baby B is in room 1, LL is assigned two babies in room 3.
Not long after B's parents left her cotside and went to bed, LL was in room 1 taking baby B's blood gases. 15 minutes later B collapsed and stopped breathing. She was successfully resuscitated.
11th June -
LL texted asking if any spare shifts were going saying I need to take an ITU baby soon. She was told it's ok to have time out and enjoy the sun.
13th June -
LL back to work. She was assigned two babies in room 3 and this was the shift where she was told repeatedly to look after her very sick baby in room 3. Sophie Ellis had baby C in room 1, with support from Mel Taylor also in room 1.
9.48pm – whatsapp convo -
JJ-K: "You ok? x"
LL: "I just keep thinking about Monday. Feel like I need to be in 1 to overcome it, but E said no x"
JJ-K: "I agree with her, I don't think it will help. You need a break from full-on ITU, you have to let it go or it will eat you up. I know not easy and will take time."
LL: "Not the vented baby necessarily, I just feel I need to be in 1, to get the image out of my head. Mel said the same and E let her go. Being in 3 is eating me up. All I can see is him in 1 x. It probably sounds odd but it's how I feel x"
JJ-K: “Well it’s up to you but don’t think it’s going to help. It sounds very odd and I’d be complete opposite. Can understand E, she’s trying to look after you all.
LL: “Well that’s how I feel from when I’ve experienced it. At the Women’s I’ve needed to go straight back and have a sick baby, otherwise the image of the one you lost never goes. Why send Mel in if she’s trying to look after us? She was in bits over it. x I don’t expect people to understand but I know how I feel and how I have dealt with it before. I’ve voiced that so can’t do any more, but people should respect that. x”
JJ-K: “Ok. I think they do respect it but also trying to help you. Why don’t you go in 1 for a bit?”
LL: "Yeah, I have done a couple of meds in 1. I’ll be fine. x Forget I said anything, I’ll be fine, it's part of the job but just don't feel like there is much team spirit tonight x"
JJ-K: "I am not going to forget but just think you're way too hard on yourself. It is part of the job but the worst part but I do believe it makes us stronger people."
LL: Unfortunately I’ve seen my fair share at the Women’s but you are supported differently and here it’s like people want to tell you how to think/feel. Anyway, onwards and upwards. X
JJ-K: A lot of girls say Women’s don’t support and tell them to get on with it. I think they don’t mean to tell you though, and we’re over-caring sometimes.
11.09pm
LL: Women’s can be awful but I learnt hard way that you have to speak up to get support. I lost a baby one day and few hours later was given another dying baby just born in the same cot space. Girls there said it was important to overcome the image. It was awful but by end of day I realised they were right. It’s just different here. X Anyway forget it. I can only talk about it properly with those who knew him and Mel not interested so I’ll overcome it myself. You get some sleep. x
11.15pm - baby C collapsed - while LL was alone with him. He could not be revived. She told his mother she thought he was going to die and asked if she wanted to call a priest.
LL had to be told repeatedly to come out of the family room, and the father says she asked them to put the baby in the ventilated basket while he was still alive.
(whatsapp convo updated from the latest podcast)
The Trial of Lucy Letby: Episode 29, Arrested
7th June - twins A&B born. LL not working.
8th June -
9.21am - LL received a text telling her 30wk twins born last night and asking her if she could work that evening.
Mel Taylor was baby A's designated nurse for the day shift.
7.22pm LL arrived for her night-shift handover.
8pm care of baby A handed over to LL.
8.26pm baby A crashed,
8.33pm no heart rate detected. Chest compressions continue.
8.58pm baby A was pronounced dead.
LL had been his nurse for less than an hour.
9th June -
LL's night-shift.
Baby B is in room 1, LL is assigned two babies in room 3.
Not long after B's parents left her cotside and went to bed, LL was in room 1 taking baby B's blood gases. 15 minutes later B collapsed and stopped breathing. She was successfully resuscitated.
11th June -
LL texted asking if any spare shifts were going saying I need to take an ITU baby soon. She was told it's ok to have time out and enjoy the sun.
13th June -
LL back to work. She was assigned two babies in room 3 and this was the shift where she was told repeatedly to look after her very sick baby in room 3. Sophie Ellis had baby C in room 1, with support from Mel Taylor also in room 1.
9.48pm – whatsapp convo -
JJ-K: "You ok? x"
LL: "I just keep thinking about Monday. Feel like I need to be in 1 to overcome it, but E said no x"
JJ-K: "I agree with her, I don't think it will help. You need a break from full-on ITU, you have to let it go or it will eat you up. I know not easy and will take time."
LL: "Not the vented baby necessarily, I just feel I need to be in 1, to get the image out of my head. Mel said the same and E let her go. Being in 3 is eating me up. All I can see is him in 1 x. It probably sounds odd but it's how I feel x"
JJ-K: “Well it’s up to you but don’t think it’s going to help. It sounds very odd and I’d be complete opposite. Can understand E, she’s trying to look after you all.
LL: “Well that’s how I feel from when I’ve experienced it. At the Women’s I’ve needed to go straight back and have a sick baby, otherwise the image of the one you lost never goes. Why send Mel in if she’s trying to look after us? She was in bits over it. x I don’t expect people to understand but I know how I feel and how I have dealt with it before. I’ve voiced that so can’t do any more, but people should respect that. x”
JJ-K: “Ok. I think they do respect it but also trying to help you. Why don’t you go in 1 for a bit?”
LL: "Yeah, I have done a couple of meds in 1. I’ll be fine. x Forget I said anything, I’ll be fine, it's part of the job but just don't feel like there is much team spirit tonight x"
JJ-K: "I am not going to forget but just think you're way too hard on yourself. It is part of the job but the worst part but I do believe it makes us stronger people."
LL: Unfortunately I’ve seen my fair share at the Women’s but you are supported differently and here it’s like people want to tell you how to think/feel. Anyway, onwards and upwards. X
JJ-K: A lot of girls say Women’s don’t support and tell them to get on with it. I think they don’t mean to tell you though, and we’re over-caring sometimes.
11.09pm
LL: Women’s can be awful but I learnt hard way that you have to speak up to get support. I lost a baby one day and few hours later was given another dying baby just born in the same cot space. Girls there said it was important to overcome the image. It was awful but by end of day I realised they were right. It’s just different here. X Anyway forget it. I can only talk about it properly with those who knew him and Mel not interested so I’ll overcome it myself. You get some sleep. x
11.15pm - baby C collapsed - while LL was alone with him. He could not be revived. She told his mother she thought he was going to die and asked if she wanted to call a priest.
LL had to be told repeatedly to come out of the family room, and the father says she asked them to put the baby in the ventilated basket while he was still alive.
(whatsapp convo updated from the latest podcast)
The Trial of Lucy Letby: Episode 29, Arrested
