I never ever sent a message to Jayme, feeling she was way too young at the time for such things. Now, maybe it's OK just to say a few words of encouragement.
Jayme, just as with little kidnapped Elizabeth Smart, who grew up to love and help others like you, specifically, I, and many other people, lots of them on this site, " Websleuths", wish you the support and room to grow physically, spiritually, and emotionally.
So many people, including me, pray for your happiness!!
Embrace the person you are inside your mind and heart, and be true to the real you all the time.
No one " expects" you to act or be any certain way except to be lawful, of course, which is true for all good people. Just be Jayme.
All of us grow and change a LOT when we're in your current age group and until we're in our mid to late 20's ( college being a huge change and a happy one).
It's just fine to feel one way one day, and another way the next day, unless any of it hurts your heart. If it does, grab an adult you trust well, and they'll listen or do an activity with you which cheers you up, or both, whichever you prefer.
You have so much to look forward to, even though we tend not to understand this well when we're teens. We are learning so much, and have a few really close friends to do things with, so what happens every day with our friends and family is the important stuff.
If you keep a journal ( I wish I'd been encouraged to do so), try to record one happy thing you did, saw, learned, or felt that day. At some point in the future, like years from now, the things you wrote will be memories which will make you smile. Some of them will likely mean a whole lot years from now, like a snapshot of your day to day growing and changing thoughts, hopes, funny happenings, and acts of kindness. It's fine to add any feelings to your journal.
No one expects you to ' be like' any other person, just to be yourself. I'm a mom, and it's very important to me that young adults graduate from High School and go to a good college, and graduate with a degree and skills that you'll use in the career you choose.
Be thinking about where you'd like to go and what you'd like to do in college, because we do usually make these educational decisions when we are in High School. I went to a great college not far from my home, and it was fun. I learned how to be a Registered Nurse and have loved what I chose to do for many years now, and my child went into the IT field with s0me special skills learned working summers at NASA. My only child also enjoyed going to a different college than mine, but still pretty close to home.
I'm speaking to you about the future because I know you are brave, smart, and have a really good future in front of you.
One day, I hope you'll come to the Gulf Coast of the US to visit, and enjoy the warm sunny beaches we have here. ( Bring your sunscreen!
). People are down to earth and friendly, and most prices are really low here.
I live in Texas, in a part where it's always either hot or warm, and the heat is very dry, which is easy to be active in compared to humid areas. I moved here in my 30's and learned to wear Western boots and do some Western dances ( mostly stomping around in those boots) when I was about your aunt's age.
I love to mostly wear sort of cute colorful, funky Boho clothes which are very casually modest, and I believe you might as well.
People who are very good, kind people get to know us over time by our smiles, our hobbies and activities we might share with their interests, and through our shared faith in God.
Look to your close friends and family for your shared laughter and closeness, and look in your church and your heart for Jesus, for that's where your joys will come.
A friendly girl hug from a caring heart.
