My first post on Hailey's threads but I read here, I just don't post.
Dang.
Porn doesn't bother me in the least. Deviant acts that are not illegal don't bother me in the least.
What does bother me is that in this particular instance we do not know the exact nature of the deviance that is by the sheer number of the images downloaded and saved of intense interest to one or both.
Exactly how deviant are we talking about? Are we talking about deviance where the images foster the fantasy of sexualized young adolescents? (grown women made up to appear to be between ages of 13-17)? Or are we talking some other deviance that has nothing whatsoever to do with this missing child?
It's not the porn, it's not the deviance it's the volume that was saved. Saving means that the image was important enough to keep for another look IMHO.
Sure, I think a great many of us if not all members here at WS have stuff archived on our computer that would make most investigators gut clench up if we were the suspect in a murder case LOL.
And I won't even say that you might not find a trail of pornography website viewings (I have three teens in my house at this time, they could be curious...it could happen...who knows?) but I can tell you what you won't find...
You won't find over a hundred thousand images of anything much less deviant porn. Freakin' holy cow, over one hundred THOUSAND images.
Some body has a really really bad obsession. That stuff will bleed over into your real life, I firmly believe that....JMHO.
I sometimes wish there was a way for WS members to occasionally hide their identity by posting anonymously. This is one of those times.
I have known three men in my life who expressed an interest in bestiality. The whole idea creeps me out, and considering that it is illegal, it would seem the majority of people agree with me.
The first of these men was a coworker. He shared a disk of images with a couple of coworkers, one of whom had held onto it because it creeped HER out too. He started trying to date me, but there was just no way. At the time, my daughter was 7, and the idea of leaving her alone with him gave me the willies (he offered to watch her so I could take a class one night a week). One day I found a message on my home answering machine from his live-in girlfriend (who knew?) asking if I knew about his child-porn website, and that the State's Attorney for St. Mary's County was investigating him.
I called the State's Attorney's office to verify (I thought she might think I was interested in him and made it up) and they did not answer directly, but let me know it was true. I was completely freaked out and that's when I learned for the first time about the disk. I never looked at the contents, but she told me there were 3 child-porn images on it as well. I asked him directly and he told me that he had viewed child porn for "research purposes" because he had 3 daughters living with an ex-wife in another state and wanted to know what was out there.
I asked if he'd ONLY looked at images involving girl children and he said yes in a way that made me know it was NOT "just research." I felt sort of sick, having just learned all of this stuff about this guy who had been coming on to me for months, and asked him why he'd save images to a disk if it was just research. Somehow this led to him telling me he had several THOUSAND images of child porn featuring little girls. I knew that HIS daughters were due to come for a 2-week visit, so I immediately called the Center for Missing and Exploited Children and the FBI. Like Billie, at the time I looked MUCH younger than I was, and was carded whenever I purchased alcohol, etc. and it upset me to think that might have been the reason he was interested in me.
I was interviewed by the FBI. They took my answering machine and my laptop (GFs message and he'd once used my laptop) and went away. I never heard a word from them after that, and never got my electronics back. I assumed he'd never been prosecuted. A few weeks ago I looked him up on the federal RSO website, and found he had served 5 years and was registered. He must have pled out, and my laptop just never got returned.
Second guy was a similar deal. He WAS someone I dated, and when I found out about the bestiality, it killed the relationship. 5 years later HE was convicted of child molestation, and sentenced to 15 years in prison (after 45 years were suspended).
The third guy, also someone I dated, introduced me to porn. Not my thing, as it turns out. But once it was introduced, he was "hooked" (I think he just brought his existing addiction out into the open and he'd been into it all along). After a bit, he starting shifting to bestiality, first "by accident" and then "out of curiosity". Then he told me he'd dated a girl once who was very into it, and that HE was now very into it as a result. He asked me to do some things I found distasteful and degrading, and he would not let it go. That was the end of the relationship.
To date, I know of no child porn or molestation convictions, although he'd dated an 18 year old while in his late 40s, but 2 out of 3 guys I knew who were interested in bestiality ALSO were into kids.
Just my experience.
Definitely a deal-killer.
