These were my friends n my house! It has destroyed me sense Feb 23rd 2022. My life will never ever be the same. Jasmine was trying to move on with her life and working on herself to be the best she could be. We all were. We were not homeless. We paid rent to our friend, the person that owned the home. We all got together and helped each other pick up our pieces of what life already threw at us individually and for some reason we all ran into each other at the same moment that we needed each other the most. We moved out there to get away from everyone and everything we knew so we could start over completely and focus on ourselves and on our own journey of life with each other's support. We made it work and it really started to seem like all our pain n struggles were almost over bcuz we weren't alone anymore and we had us. Our family. We were a house of nothing but Pisces n Aries. It was interesting for sure! Lol we were all connected on a soul level. No one would b able to understand unless they were us. I even felt like something was wrong a few hours after Frankie dropped me off at work. I blew up everyone even ppl I didn't want to talk to bcuz it wasn't like him to not answer me when I asked "r u okay?" I called Eddie his phone was off which is still really weird to me. Eddie is always the one u can call n he will pick up no matter what he was doing. He loved everyone! I messaged jas but she didn't know where they were. Last thing I heard from her was "koo koo bird is here" when the owner called on when he got off at 6am n told me the house was on fire n my car was in the driveway, I lost it! I had to call my boss to come n take me home which I had to walk the whole way down the rd bcuz they blocked it all off. As I walk up everyone is standing around hundreds of fire fighters n police.. I screamed get them out. I kept telling them who might b in there, meanwhile they kept interrupting me to ask me my info which I still don't understand how they could seem like they didn't really care. I stood there n watched my house burning.. I didn't know my best friend was dead in my driver's seat in my car the whole time or Eddie was in the house n I couldn't not understand if they swear jasmines body wasn't in there why they didn't shut down everything right then n looked for her. Why they made it seem like she went missing but wasn't endanger. I just got called into work that night at 11pm or I would've been their too. I called the police everyday wanting answers. They just stopped talking to me. I'm not blood family. I bet u if they could ask them they would say I'm just as much family as the one they were born into. We would do anything for each other. Our loyalty n love was unconditional. No matter what we always showed up. We got thru everything together. We were changing ourselves n our lives n really making a difference. I'd give anything for them to still be here today. I would even take their place if it was possible bcuz Feb 23rd a big part of my soul died n for the longest I was hoping jas was still alive. I don't know what condition she would be in knowing that 2 of her favorite ppl were I'm sure killed right infront of her b4 she had to go bit him on her terrifying trip with these men. Blaming herself I'm sure. Probably felt the same way I did when they said one body was Frankie Thomas as I lost my mind in the room the ppl were questioning me in. I wasn't expecting to lose them. No!!! She was there right there when it happened so whether she got away or not she was still in danger in my eyes n what happened was so traumatizing even more bcuz of how much we really did love and care about each other. So I just wanted to find her. So she wasn't alone. To tell her it wasn't her fault. They would've tried to save her over n over again. We all would've died if we were all home that night. I know I would step infront of any of them b4 I could handle watching someone kill them so I know she needed me n I needed her too! We would've been all that's left n we would've stuck it out n worked thru whatever we needed to together or just b each other's support. I tried to put posts of Facebook for ppl to share. I think 2 ppl did. I found out on day 3 from some random person that I didn't know knew them bcuz I had never met koo koo bird. I heard about him from them but that's it until someone said he probably took her to Florida, he got places down there, he done this b4..... n then no more info. Well I told the police on day 3 I heard he from Florida n he probably took her there. But instead of jumping right on it n checking they wanted to dig into stuff that didn't even matter n bcuz of it now the info is all wrong, times r wrong, there is alot more stuff that they don't even care about. They were not worried about jas. I lived there and all I got was red cross helped me get 3 days in a hotel. That's it! I lost every single thing I had. My family of friends. My roof over my head, my Lincoln bcuz Frankie got killed in it so they took it too everything we owned was in the house or in my car. Then of course they took my phone n 100$ cash I had in my wallet bcuz they said they aren't sure I'f it's drug related!!!? So I went from going to work my life on track, happy, ready to take on the world and make my goals happen to not even 12 hours later n all I have left of my life is me, the clothes I was wearing to work that night, I purse that had no money no phone n all I wanted was my friends to come back me up in my car n take me home so we can talk about what just happened. It's not possible anymore. It wasn't a bad dream. It's too real. If I didn't have an amazing boss I don't know where I would be. She has been a great blessing in my life she really helped me as much as possible. Cops didn't care about my safety bcuz they looked at us like we deserve this. Like we are criminals bcuz we all have had a past. We are human tho and my friends mattered. N they didn't deserve to die. When I found out about Jasmine it broke me all over again. It's like that day was like yesterday. It's hard to believe it's been almost a year already n I'm still stuck back on Feb 23rd. It wasn't suppose to happen. It wasn't part of our plans. It's like everything in life stopped n they left without me. They were all I had. I knew who we were. I knew I could count on them n they knew they could count on me. I wish I could've saved them. I'm not allowing myself to beat myself up n over over think bcuz I know how dangerous for my mental health it would b if I just let it all out n all it will do is hurt me. I know they would want me to live out our legacy n to do everything I can in life sense I spent so many hours n days n weeks n months trying to get everyone motivated n show them they r worth it n we can reach the light at the end of the tunnel no matter how life was b4. We prayed n talked to God alot the last week. I seen God thru us especially when Frankie got into prayer. I could feel his soul. N I was so proud of Jasmine really strong and determined to be successful for her for her babies n let no man or anyone stop us! (At the time when we bumped into each other I found safe haven with Frankie n Eddie too months b4 her bcuz my now ex husband was stalking me and threating me n hurting me. He was very abusive so I had to run n hide from him) so it was crazy how me n Jasmine came together. Instantly became soul sisters for life. All of us shared alot of tears, pain, anger, anxiety attacks, bad habits, battles with ourselves n each other sometimes lol (only bcuz we cared so much) happiness, laughter, loyalty n love. I will never find anyone like them. Frankie aka Boo has been my bestfriend n partner from the first moment i met him. He brought the energy n excitement to my soul when my last 6 years of my life being married a mom of 4 kids at once, a whole life that i thought was going to be forever just ended n this man i thought i knew turned into a monster n then wouldnt ler me see my kids bcuz "if we arent together im not their mom" Boo let me cry for hours over my kids. Never left my side. Went with me to sign my divorce papers just for support n to make sure i felt safe n i wasnt alone. Would go above n behind for anyone he comes in contact with. N he was very protective of jas from the first day he brought her home i knew he felt a sense of responsibility to her. Boo could get Rowdy sometimes we all did but he loved talking crap lol n that was part of our growth process but we would get into sometimes n we might sometimes didnt like what each other said but it was always something we needed to hear. My soul n heart are forever broken n scarred for life. Nothing feels certain no more n I'm afraid to care about anyone bcuz I don't want to lose them. I'm not okay but I'm doing the best I can. I wake up everyday, go to work do school online I had recently got a car again but something happen n it stopped working n I slammed head on into a tree so now I'm back to where I was on Feb 23rd 2022 homeless carless friendless but i put my hope in tomrw bcuz that's all I have to look forward to really. So I do today, what will help me tomrw. Even when I really don't even know for what purpose should I really try when it's all gonna b for nothing in the end but I still say what would they do if they were able to come back n do things differently n that y I'm still here. Everything would b all for nothing if I chose to do nothing so I'm gonna do as much as I can. Learn anything I don't know. Work hard make my life what I want it to be n let nothing n no one stop me. I'm doing it for us. That's all I can do now. So it wasn't drug related it wasn't a love triangle it was a guy from her past that went after her n threatened ppl. Jasmine was trying to get away from the life she had to live when she had to deal with him. Still no new info on Jasmines death or how or who or when. I miss my friends. Sry I don't know how much I just wrote but there is some real info about my friends. Who they really were. Thanks for taking time to read.
