I'm so sorry. I understand how truly disturbing it can be. It is subhuman. Please protect your psyche while you venture into this.
I was assaulted by him in 1985, long before anyone knew who he was. It was in a public place and I had my face right up close to his as he had pushed me against a wall. So I got a long long look into it's demented eyes from about 12 inches. He just... wasn't there... whatever "it" was that had control of his eyes and brain was from another dimension, and was being very active inside his eyes... It was more disturbing than I can describe. I knew that IT had already killed and IT would kill again. I insisted as much so vehemently to the police that they had a sketch artist come in to draw him based on my description.
My best friend and her husband at the time were professional counselors at a local mental health center. A year or so later she told me I was still way too affected by that "handsy" sexual assault by a common pervert in a public place. I told her "but you didnt look into his eyes, that robotic demon is a serial killer."
Over the years my career changed and I moved 6 times to 3 different states and my terror softened as I was so very busy.
We were all taken totally by surprise and gutted when ~15 years later the guy they arrested as btk the serial killer turned out to be HIM. I never connected the guy I heard about vaguely several states over until I SAW him as his allocution was televised. I went into shock.
I did eventually call the lead investigator, who was very kind, to ask for my dog's collar back
and we had a very nice conversation and he gave me some heartfelt advice. He had clearly been very affected himself. Chewbacca the Redbone Wookie Dog, Chewy for short, had his name and my phone number on his collar. But they couldn't release anything that had been taken into evidence. He assured me I didn't want to touch ANYTHING that monster had ever touched. I suppose that was good advice, but damn, that monster DEFILED my beloved dog's collar.
That
... that freaking demented
... ..
I really would like to know what made him that way... I think thats why I've studied cases here at Websleuths through all these years, looking for the often unanswerable whys...
