Gosh I have so many thoughts on this after finally catching up again!! Let's see if I can remember it all now...
It seems that AC needed complete control and people in the area had said, he worked the neighborhood and got everyone to like him, though in the last few years he was more reclusive.
The way men like him control women is to 'break' them, to constantly abuse them emotionally, physically and financially.
He abused them emotionally by way of making them a cake and dinner on their anniversaries (sick f$&k). He threatened to kill them, he apparently made Amanda watch TV footage of her mothers death (according to early MSM reports) and no doubt made them watch footage of the searches for them. imagine all of the taunts over the years, as he got information of out of them or from families and turned it around on them.
Remembering that he also went to the vigils etc, imagine what he came back and told them... So horrific...
Even allowing Amanda to have the baby was a way of abusing Michele.
He abused them physically. Michele is so severely injured from her repeated beatings that her hearing is damaged and her face has 'structural' damage (I detest that phrase). Michele was also beaten to induce miscarriages.
Given his reported history of an abusive past, we can only imagine how far this abuse went and what the others endured.
He abused them financially because they were completely and utterly reliant on him for EVERYTHING! Food, water, clothing, medicine, personal hygiene products etc etc. he no doubt enjoyed this power as much as any of it because it reminded him and them that he had ultimate control.
I wonder if Michelle being older wasn't what AC was actually after, if she is infact only 4'7" she would look younger and maybe from the get go he resented that, maybe he felt like he'd been tricked? This could explain her treatment? As of course could many other scenarios...
I, like others believe that Amanda was a clear favourite. Who knows why? Maybe for the same reasons that some people click with some and not others? Maybe he'd been a regular at Burger King and was fond of her, or maybe she is just a sweet girl that caught his perverted eye? Amanda seemed to be able to handle him and I'd guess that having a child gave her the will to push on and get through it for her daughters sake. Becoming a Mum changes you in so many ways! Something that AC would never understand. I don't doubt that she was still abused severely.
We don't seem to know much about Gina's ordeal, other than she didn't appear to become pregnant, though could have had early miscarriages that were missed. I think maybe he was just indifferent to Gina, she was neither here nor there.
As far as his suicide note went, I read that it was a couple of years old. Regardless of the truth in that, I think that one day he wanted it known what he'd done, he wanted that notoriety that would come with it. I feel that he left it there as a back up plan that if one day he was away from the house and found out that he'd been caught out, he could take the cowardly way out and still have the last word. He may also have used it as a taunt to the girls, another way of installing fear. Who would feed or free them if he were dead, how long till someone found him?
My heart goes out to the girls, all three of them have been hurt in ways that we could never imagine possible. They shared a journey, but then that journey was so different for each of them, their traumas and the way they dealt with them were so different.
I just hope that they can continue to support each other as they have for the past 10 or so years and that their families and communities band together to be all that they need to be for these extraordinary young ladies!
Oh I also had another thought about Amanda and the jewellery she was wearing at the hospital, and her daughter too. I'm wondering if these were gifts from AC? If he did infact delude himself to see Amanda as his girlfriend he might have bought her things. He may also have done that for the others? Or only Amanda as a way to downgrade the other women...
Sorry for the essay!