You, at that time was just in terrible pain, but you did not have the malice to kill other people. You are an ok person.
Hey, there've been other times I've had the impulse to murder someone. I got the hell away from the temptation. Those times have nothing to do with antidepressants or withdrawal.
I concur with those people who have said that starting on an SSRI can increase suicide risk. Some people experience an initial 'high' which is something other than the depression relief the medicines are intended to give. At that time those people are more impulsive and more likely to immediately act on various impulses including suicidal ones. I don't know whether they'd be more likely to act on aggressive impulses; I don't see why not; and I presume we all have them, at times, to some degree. However, that is a long way from saying that a person so affected is incapable of self-control or doesn't know right from wrong.