greenthumb
Well-Known Member
- Joined
- May 29, 2009
- Messages
- 1,288
- Reaction score
- 81
I have this odd feeling, that when r.w is posing in the under garments, he does not perceive himself as a large hairy man,but rather as a young attractive female, whose very essence he wishes to inhabit.
I agree. IMO, it seems there was a need inside him to express himself as a female (actually specifically as a young girl). I am speculating that it was a need that he hated in himself and tried to suppress and control. Maybe latent homosexual tendencies? I wonder if the skills he developed to control what he knew were his dark, sick urges actually were the very same skills that made him so successful in the military - rigidity, organization, attention to detail, etc. And if it is true that he'd fought off these urges for years, then I wonder what happened that made him lose control over it and start acting on them 3 years ago... some crisis in his life? It would make sense to me if at some point it is suggested that he had split/dual personalities - his grim expression in the pics makes me think that some part of him was disgusted and tormented by himself even as he was engaging in his vile behaviour.
It has been mentioned that he was getting sloppy toward the end, and I wonder if that was intentional on his part, perhaps not consiously but that his subconcious really wanted to be exposed and stopped. Even the meticulous record keeping seems like he was knowingly creating a rock solid case against himself.
Is it possible that a person can be both - a vile, disgusting monster living in and sharing the same body/brain/soul as a regular, more decent man (which from all accounts everyone in the military, his community, etc. thought he was) - and that one part of the man battles the other part throughout his entire life? I am not suggesting that I see him as a decent man at all - just fascinated by how long he kept up the appearance of being a decent man and wondering how that could be?