(((( CCC ))) Hang in there, with us. We have each other and what an awesome support group this is. Take a deep breath and try (easier to say than do) to not think of the "what if" Try to find some date in the future (holiday, personal holiday, etc) and envision how you will celebrate.
I've told my girls, be prepared, next Christmas may be tuna melts and stockings full of PPE (I'm really stocked on some things! Other things, not so much) Their responses? We don't care! I believe this is one of those life lessons that is going to totally humble us everyone and we'll be so thankful for the love of family and friends and just the basics once this is over.
I say this realizing that it will take a miracle for me to not personally lose some of my family, I don't even bother to try to talk reason to them any longer. I just listen and love them. I can't change anyone else's behavior or belief. I tried, didn't work. My responsibility at present is to take care of myself, so I may take care of them if needed once this is over.
Keep talking to us - we do understand. Share your feelings, your successes and your doubts. One day at a time, sometimes, one hour at a time.
