I just have never gotten the vibe that she did it
I'm afraid we will never agree on this point. I made a mistake many years ago choosing my gut feeling over facts and evidence. I will never do that again.
The facts and evidence quite clearly tells me she is guilty.
there was no financial gain and she still had a child left ( never got the sense that she wanted rid of them) and Darren and her remained civil for a long time so it wasn't a punish" my hubby murder " in fact HE was the ODD one out of the two
One of the reasons motive doesn't need to be proven in court is because quite often there is no motive. Or very little motive. To me she wanted them dead, so they are. Why she did it seldom matters to me but if I had to guess I'd say she was depressed and felt trapped and in her head getting rid of two of her boys would free her.
You say there was no financial gain..I don't agree. The life insurance on the boys was a good amount. I know the argument is that the funerals soaked up that money but there is no proof I've seen that Darlie had any idea how much a funeral would cost. For all we know the funeral cost didn't even enter her mind. So the financial gain argument is possible. It's not my theory, though. Like I said I lean more toward Darlie making an emotional decision to kill and things escalated from there.
Yes, Darin is an odd one. So is Darlie. Two very interesting things about Darin:
There are a few places in his statement on the 8th that clearly show he was in shock the night of the murders, not so Darlie. It doesn't exclude my suspicion he helped stage the scene but that as well as Darlie's own words saying he didn't do it is enough to exclude him until evidence puts him back under suspicion.
Also, he was a no show for days when the trial started. I would really like to know where he was those days.
and I will never believe she cut herself that deep that close to the artery I just cant , she does seem too poofey to hurt herself like that (I've been cut requiring surgery there's NO WAY)
Oh I do. That story that she most likely faked a rape just to make Darin leave his party and come with her tells me all I need to know. Again that nasty mental stuff keeps popping up..anyone that is willing to go to those lengths, faking a rape, to get her way would up the ante if she needed to. It's no different than people who escalate arguments with more violent actions or words or people that escalate their sex life for more sensation or emotion.
Hercule Poirot said something in one of Christie's books that has always stuck with me during these discussions, paraphrasing now..(to Hastings) you are appalled by murder because you see it as something to avoid where some people see it just as another way to achieve what they want.
I see Darlie that way. She wanted Darin to leave the party, she had no qualms lying to get the outcome she wanted. She felt trapped in her life and she wanted to be free, so she killed at least two of the people who were in her way.
Yes, I know she wouldn't be free from Darin and Drake but if my assessment is right she probably did plan to kill all four of them and either chickened out or found how hard this whole murder thing was when she had to stab Damon the second time.
There is no reason to believe she knew how close her cut was to the carotid.