This post is what I'd call after the trials and sentencing thoughts and therapy, and JMO.
Just wanted to say I found watching Jimmy go through his trial and sentencing I saw his focus was steady, no crazy note taking and antics like someone else we know. I found his emotional reactions appropriate and closer to sincere, at least, than the beyond bad fake crying and ridiculous facial expressions of Mark during his trial.
MS's defense tried to say he came from a broken home and had a rough childhood, but really it was no where near as bad as JRR's childhood.
We all make decisions at forks in the road. JRR was so close to finally riding a wave of change and opportunity in his life with a good job, a caring woman, and children looking up to him. He could have really gone to see his brother graduate that weekend instead of going with CWW to kill. He would've been able to be there when his own child was born. It is sad because Teresa loved life and helping people, and JRR was so close to finally having a good life, but he instead took hers. He made such the wrong decision.
I can't imagine spending a lifetime behind bars, but I also can't imagine choosing to kill someone. JRR knows how to focus and he can think. There can be no excuses for brutally killing a human being.
Funny I've was thinking a new post titled something similar would be idk fun to read especially knowing what we all know now vs when it happened.
First I'm kinda new. Joined idk when but I'm afraid of this and never post, just read along quietly. I am high though (legal state) so here goes.
I'm a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic also with bipolar and its lovely psychotic features. Along with an anxiety and panic association that would make JRRs um "anxiety" seem like a hiccup from chewing spearmint gum. All my life, nothing new to see. I've taken a combination of 87 different medications and nothing has worked like cannabis has. I was also my moms and 2 older brothers punching bag, getting "spanked" daily even when, by mom's admission later in my life that alot of times it was done in frustration. I was different and all. Dad was a drunk and a mean one yet he did actually try and protect me from her, when his sorry backside stayed long enough at one time anyway, prison, affairs sometimes work even. Plus there was 8 of us kids on top of it all yet she tried and oddly still wish she were alive. I never made it passed ninth grade and I was on my 3rd try at that when I quit. But I did work my but off into my 40s before 2 nervous breakdowns back 2 back almost finally forced me to get help. Then alottttttt of shyt finally made so much sense lol.got married, had and raised 2 girls whom are perfect ( right?) Even owned my own restaurant b4 I broke for good and that was 20 yrs ago. I dont even think of leaving home now. Cant. Nope. But I've got a good wife and family for 34 yrs now. And I've never broken a law, ok traffic but screw that cop! nor am I violent in fact I'm a pacifist if anything... I know, my point. I'm getting there k? Lol
So, just given a short summary of my life, even remove my wife and kids from it. But if I was the moron that pulled this stunt and knowing this now, does it change your sentence or give me leniency for it say a shot at redemption on the outside??
That said,
I'm ok with the CWW deal. Sometimes we've gotta give a little to get the devil. And they indeed got MS. And if what cww says is true which I'm still convinced hes lying still, but if so then JRR regardless of the background got what he bought himself. The claims of CWWs brilliant mind. Ok. Maybe. Idk. For certain the 3 amigos lacked even basic common sense. I mean consider had CWW and JRR both kept their mouths shut, claimed a camping trip with phones left in said camping area, not used any electronic device and used a car with no GPS computer or well pre 90s car then they probably all get away with it. I will always believe he did it because she indeed was gonna take those girls. And really who could blame her? At the least he was proven to be an unhinged deviant before all this. Idc about his or even her sex life I mean it wasn't motive so eh. I don't think AW should have caught a charge 4 anything even if she lied I don't think it really impeded their investigation and honestly shes got worse problems and has had a horrible time of things. Better choices sure but I'm no one to judge that but hope she finds some peace and learns to live. Same for Shomaker.
As I said, im a daddy to 2 girls. I spent Mark's trial imagining if I were in those woefully disgusting shoes. Would my family come and support? Jesus what about my kids? What on earth could/would they think of me? That alone would make me figure out how to turn my pants into a rope. How would I be acting, sitting there, knowing my shiny yet greasy head was being blasted to who knows how many TVs, phones and computers. Hearing how I turned a kinda cool life into such an ugly, twisted, disgusting mess that I chose to fill with cheating, thieving, lying instead of laughter, happiness and most importantly saftey for my girls!? I guess that's why I oddly understood his BS writing or the stupid looks and his water drinking.
And those little ladies of Dr. Ts. Cant fathom it for them. I pray they find their piece one day and thrive. They will. Pretty sure the others will help them figure it out, the right way.
Sorry dont be mad please I know I ramble but I'm trying and I dont offend others, not intentionally anyway so please just warn me and dont kick mu e off ok? Ok thanks bye now