I took the time to read the entire thing and repost...i dont know if anyone else has cuz i have been so busy trying to get this done but here it is just in case. If someone else has then sorry for reposting already done material. But if not it might help. I am so compuzzled about this...it is getting so confusing can someone please help me fill in the blanks?
Here it is...Hello my favorite dark person
Hey its me Elisa, I am going crazy in this cell. I have told the cops everything I know bout what has happened to Zahra. They arrested Adam but he got right back out how fair is that? See I told you I have no support. I have never been so angry over stuff as I am right now. He knows what happened to Zahra and yet I am the one in here at least for now. I have heard from mail that people think he is guilty and heartless towards me. Makes me wonder is there hasnt been someone else. My lawyers asked me if I wanted to divorce him cause of some stuff that came out about Zahra. We really didnt kill her. But
what he did after the fact is kinda horrifying. Makes me scared of him. So I probably am gonna go ahead and file I have lost my whole life anyway. I have
been fittered a little of what media is saying of me from drug problems towitchcraft. I have never had a drug problem an people think paganiom is devil warshipping. Our world is full of hypocrites. Hope all is well since I heard from you I wrote you and I still havent heard back. Hopefully your not
believing the media. Your the only friend I have at this point. Hopefully you send some pictures so I get an idea of who I am writing. I will be so glad when I get out and go back to being myself. Put my hair back like I normally it an being myself. This just aint me. I am not happy with some of my lawyers decisions they wanna keep continuing cases that lowers my bail to a reasonable amount and I ask about getting this superior case in docket quick he says. He says it could take 6 to 8 months. I dont want to be in here that long again for something I didnt do, he did all of this. Halloween is almost here I have done nothing but cry. I want out of at least solitary confinement. Im on suicide watch, why I have no idea. But I feel like I have nothing to live for now. I heard that I have made it to the Nancy Drew Show the keep calling my lawyers wanting an interview with me. Everyone does. Sometimes I thin
that my lawyers shouldnt keep me out of the media, I want a chance to till the truth and defend myself, no one else is. But I keep getting told say nothing is best. I am gonna be debriefed this week so adam is suppose to be arrested again I dont know nothing has went, the was suppose to. Not yet so far. They are fussing at me for not eating out, I but cant. I have lost too much weight they say I am killing myself, but what do they expect out of me. I feel like a fighting chicken sent wailing to get let out. I am beyond stressed. When I saw my attorney today and the said he was out to after them promising for my safety he would be let out I flipped and cried since, youre my only calming factor right now and again I cant think you enough for reaching out to me for what reasons you have, I am so thankful. Really. It would be nice to have a friendship, that is something I have very few of and how I see I had more obviously I swear I am gonna launch a campaign for people like us. The freaks of th would I guess im sick of being ridiculed by being me. I am 42 years old and dam at I am proud to say I am not a clone. Like stepfords wives. Lol. Funny the so called Christians are the first to judge me. You wouldnt believe all the hate mail. People actually want to kill me. I will have to go in hiding and move across the country when I do get out of here. Thats scary. Like I said my lawyers dont tell me all the world is saying but if it is anything these letters dang. I dont like being sheltered though cause I need to know exactly what I am dealing with out there. So some psycho doesnt come up behind and kill me. I mean I never thought it would be this way. My lawyers get death threats everyday to. This is so crazy. I just wonder if Zahra hadnt survived cancer and been from austrailia if it would be truly be like this. There are so many missing the cops know where she is and what he has done. If I hadnt admitted to that stupid note I would be out in three weeks but no they kept pushing and he did that too. Anyway how you spending Halloween? Have fun for me please. Its my favorite holiday I hate missing it. No fair. Well ive said enough I hope you write back soon and please send some pictures. I will talk to you soon I hope.
Your in my dark heart Dark love always,
Elisa
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