Well heck it sounds like something I could have written. Shoot....poor Tera...I swear to goodness I could have written that...I feel her anguish. This is not the words of a suicidal person in this case Serna!!!!!!!!! For the love of goodness...these are the words of a woman driven to almost complete insanity because her love for a disgusting man who flaunted his affairs and was emotionally and mentally (and likely verbally) abusive to her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This does not mean she wanted to kill herself, she wanted LC to change! She wanted his love, she wanted a real marraige!!!! She ended up having her own affair because of him!!!!!! Oh lord this man makes me sick sick sick sick sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!