Friday August 27 2010, this is my sons 3rd birthday - or should have been.
If anyone who has posted to this thread before is still interested - the investigation into my sons death is still active. The detectives are still working on a few leads and diligently seeking the truth.
The truth behind what happened to him that Friday afternoon 9 months ago will be found out. The little that was released in the news is far from the whole story of that day. I have the medical records, I know what the detectives know, I know why this is taking so long. Two different pictures have been painted and only one is authentic, the other a forgery. Sifting through this mess to uncover what is real is time consuming. And - nobody wants the wrong conclusion to be made.
I still pray that she is innocent. For the lesser, because she is family and I do not want this for her, or for "us". But as Lincolns father, I do not want my fears that he suffered in her care and we - I - did not notice. Hindsight does make one wiser in this situation, it only makes me feel like a horrible father. A father who did not care for his son as he should have. A father that did not see all of the warning signs that scream at me now that pleaded with me then to never take him there again.
The truth will come out. People know what happened that horrible day. Someday they will have the freedom, the courage, the need to come forth and fill in the missing pieces. Then justice can be served as it needs to be.
I miss my son every moment of every day. I still can not drive by the hospital where we left him. I still feel the weight of him in my arms from holding him and not wanting to or being able to accept that he was not coming home. To this day I fell as though I failed my son, and then abandoned him.
This is the pain that I live with every day. If anyone has experience in dealing with the media on how to revive this tragedy, to bring it back out into the public in an attempt to get that one person to come forth with one piece of truth that can swing the door - please teach me. I - our family - and most of all the memory of one of the most wonderful little boys you could ever meet in your life could use your wisdom. --- Thank you ---