I am feeling a bit the same. If the law doesn't catch up with him, life will, or at least I would like to think so. Reeva is dead and as they say, nothing will bring her back. He has his life, but what kind of life will it be? Viewed by most people as a deliberate murderer, shunned by all but a few 'fans' who can offer him nothing more than balloons, platitudes and feel good self-help quotes via twitter and facebook, having to face a public who will largely scorn him if and when he ventures out while they point and whisper and stare. He would be used to that, but as a paralympian, not a pariah. Unless he is totally amoral he will live with a weight on his conscience. He can control his life, but not his nightmares. He may marry, have kids etc, but there will always be the albatross of 'murderer!' around his neck and that dead weight will remain for the rest of his life. IMO, and believing he fired in full knowledge of who was in that cubicle, he would have been better to fess up, plead for mercy and forgiveness and live the rest of his life with some dignity. But he didn't and so he has none and most people who give him any thought despise him and always will. Winner or loser? I'd say the latter.
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