I followed this case since day 31. I didn't become a member here until right before jury selection, because, well, I'm shy and not as confident in what I thought I knew about the case as you all. My husband joined me in watching the trial when we could, even though he and my sons never really understood my obsession, not only with Caylee Marie's case, but with our other lost ones. When the announcement came that there was a verdict, I ran upstairs to tell him, and he came down to watch with me. Neither of us could breathe after hearing "not guilty" three times. I was shattered, couldn't even cry, though I cried during that 45 minute waiting period for the verdict. I was numb the rest of the day, then numb the following day when I had to return to work that evening. I didn't turn the tv on at all yesterday before work, but did follow here. One comment I heard at work yesterday was "wow, she didn't even have to try on a glove..." Indeed.
It's hard not speculating what was going through the juror's minds, from the minute they were made jurors. There are some very iffy statements out there, but I figured that was coming, because how could you say "not guilty" in ten hours without asking to at least get your notes or reviewing the media that was available? We all have our suspicions and speculation, and I agree with many of you.
I'm still sickened, and will continue to be, but you know what? She'll walk out on Wednesday, think she has it made, but oh no, hon, you so won't. Neither will the family, neither will any juror who is after the cha-ching. There are too many people who are boycotting the interviews, the books, the movies. That's a good thing.
Today was a better day, even with the sentencing. I am trying to move on from the first case of a murdered child that I have ever followed so closely. I will never forget her, and plan to do something either in our yard or around the house to remember her. Something small and lovely, just as she was. I wish that I could say that it will be a while before I get invested in another lost child case, but I know me and my heart. And they need people who care. Thank you, WS, for having me for the short time that I have been here. I'll still be around, reading, caring, thinking, and supporting.