Hi.....
Forever, I've been scratching my head about just how much driving JA was capable of doing, all through the night, without getting sleepy. How many of us drive all through the night just to go visit someone (no matter how obsessed)? Also, I've been boggled by JA beginning some of her long drives in the wee early hours, like between 2 and 5 am. Who does that?
Who does that?.....truckdrivers.
So, it occurs to me just now that she must have been taking speed. Perhaps lots of it. And, got into the habit of taking some as part of her pre-drive routine. And chronic speed use does indeed change someone's personality. It might account for DB's observation that JA's behavior changed beginning in 2006 - although he was not specific.
So, here's my scenario. JA was an amphetamine/meth/adderal user. Upon getting ready to leave TA's house and drive to UT, she pops speed - perhaps a greater than normal dose because she's tired from all of the activity with TA and has a long drive ahead. Of course she's agitated because of the whole Cancun situation, and/or whatever else that's floating in her crazy mind. She intends to leave peacefully, but then she has an amphetamine-induced psychotic break and freaks out with the knife. I mean who wouldn't have to be in a psychotic state to do what she did? Under a high dose of speed, people can still act with purposeful intention, and so she would still be able to attempt the complicated cleaning of the evidence. So she cleans up the best she can, and gets in the car to begin her drive.
And she doesn't remember large parts of it because of the short-term memory loss induced by the drug - not the whole stress thing of Samuels. She eventually recovers from the overdose a few hours down the road as she's driving north and puts 2+2 together and cleans her car, gets rid of evidence, makes the bad choices that are truly her nature, etc.
She knows she did it. But, she doesn't actually remember the details. Perhaps this is true. This is not uncommon for someone overdosing on a stimulant. I wonder if anyone ever asked her about taking those drugs.
Not that I think that this absolves her of anything. But, it might account for a lot - especially her unique ability to drive obsessively without ever sleeping.
Forever, I've been scratching my head about just how much driving JA was capable of doing, all through the night, without getting sleepy. How many of us drive all through the night just to go visit someone (no matter how obsessed)? Also, I've been boggled by JA beginning some of her long drives in the wee early hours, like between 2 and 5 am. Who does that?
Who does that?.....truckdrivers.
So, it occurs to me just now that she must have been taking speed. Perhaps lots of it. And, got into the habit of taking some as part of her pre-drive routine. And chronic speed use does indeed change someone's personality. It might account for DB's observation that JA's behavior changed beginning in 2006 - although he was not specific.
So, here's my scenario. JA was an amphetamine/meth/adderal user. Upon getting ready to leave TA's house and drive to UT, she pops speed - perhaps a greater than normal dose because she's tired from all of the activity with TA and has a long drive ahead. Of course she's agitated because of the whole Cancun situation, and/or whatever else that's floating in her crazy mind. She intends to leave peacefully, but then she has an amphetamine-induced psychotic break and freaks out with the knife. I mean who wouldn't have to be in a psychotic state to do what she did? Under a high dose of speed, people can still act with purposeful intention, and so she would still be able to attempt the complicated cleaning of the evidence. So she cleans up the best she can, and gets in the car to begin her drive.
And she doesn't remember large parts of it because of the short-term memory loss induced by the drug - not the whole stress thing of Samuels. She eventually recovers from the overdose a few hours down the road as she's driving north and puts 2+2 together and cleans her car, gets rid of evidence, makes the bad choices that are truly her nature, etc.
She knows she did it. But, she doesn't actually remember the details. Perhaps this is true. This is not uncommon for someone overdosing on a stimulant. I wonder if anyone ever asked her about taking those drugs.
Not that I think that this absolves her of anything. But, it might account for a lot - especially her unique ability to drive obsessively without ever sleeping.