Robin Williams found dead inside his home

[Steely Dan]

Well I HAVE been there for 5 yrs. now. My sister took her life 5 yrs. ago this year leaving 3 children & it's a living hell. I have overdosed 4 times since then I don't see where people says it gets better because it doesn't. In fact it gets worse. I had to leave my job of 15 yrs. I'm now on disability was in & out of hospitals & various PHP & IOP programs as I also have mental illnesses. At 13 I was diagnosed with Borderl ine Personality Disorder, Major Depression & later Bi-Polar Disorder. To just even live I have to take 5 meds. a day & underwent a series of about 15 ECT Treatments. I was in my 1st "mental" hospital when I was only 9. Too long to tell my life story here but I KNOW of which I speak.

I understand Robin perhaps being tired of fighting this dreaded disease. Been fighting about 40 yrs. now (I'm 49) & I'm friggin' tired of fighting myself. I would much rather work Being on disability is no piece of cake.

Sorry, I've been there too and didn't see any type of life I wanted to live anymore.

 

[kato]

Thanks for the link am reading it now.

 

[kato]

I don't know I just know what the doctors have said. Maybe because I was & still am a cutter.

Could be by the age of 4 we were handed over to CPS, in & out of abusive foster homes. Bio mom turned into a heroin addict. Her mom committed suicide when she was 10. Had & still abandonment & attachment problems. Had another grandfather take his life. After being in foster homes for about 5 yrs. bio dad came back and took us to CA to live. Too late we were already mucked up & that's when I entered my 1st stay in a psych ward at the age of 9. I could go on & on with more details but frankly I just got out inpatient treatment, PHP, IOP plus ECT in the past yr. I'm 49. This is do or die for me. I'm tired revisiting the past. I'm hoping to make my last years as livable and stress free as I can. The ECT seemed to work. The only bad thing is my short term memory which I was told would come back & it hasn't.
So the pros outweighed the cons. I have been on my meds for 17 yrs. a few have been added along the way but I'm on the right combo.

I just HAVE to take 1hr. at a time not a day and stay busy and in the be in the present. Not the past, not the future & no forecasting.

 

[SStarr33]

Not sure if this was posted:

Sleeping up to 18 hours a day

http://radaronline.com/exclusives/2014/08/robin-williams-depression-sleeping-18-hours-day/

 

[SnoopyDawgDawg]

http://youtu.be/Q_L1vLv84vs :


[video=youtu;Q_L1vLv84vs]http://youtu.be/Q_L1vLv84vs[/video]

 

[SnoopyDawgDawg]

http://youtu.be/KW2jSLuHlz4 :

[video=youtu;KW2jSLuHlz4]http://youtu.be/KW2jSLuHlz4[/video]

 

[kato]

Hey I edited my post explaining my condition with a little more details. Scroll up if you are interested.

 

[SnoopyDawgDawg]

Hey I edited my post explaining my condition with a little more details. Scroll up if you are interested.

That's a tough row to hoe, but you're doing it! I know it can't be easy. I admire the heck out of your strength and perseverance.

 

[TartLemon]

Watching 60 minutes of Robin Williams is mentally exhausting for me. I cannot imagine what it must have been for him to live there 24/7, 63 year of it. Life is finite. He chose the time and place. I understand his choice. Think about it every single day.

~~RIP Robin Williams~~ Thank you for everything.

 

[thefragile7393]

There may or may not be a note. Everything in his history to the present shows suicide. And no...not really strange IMO that she didn't check on him. He wasn't on suicide watch per se. She likely had no clue that he would do this. Everything points to an actual suicide at this point IMO. It all fits. Not sure what else to say ....if anything. There is no evidence to suggest auto-erotic anything right now. All we know is that a family is hurting and in pain right now....and this sort of speculation is almost insulting IMO

 

[Lovejac]

Just so sad

I don't have anything else to say.

 

[Crimson clover]

If this was to be a memorial thread only... apologies. I thought it was a discussion. I don't no that anyone mentioned murder... but I haven't read the entire thread. IMO it's not "darker" to discuss a theory other than suicide. No one is jumping into an erotica discussion that I am aware of. Sitting in a chair with a belt wedged in the door jam of a closet are details that had a question mark for me. If this was an accident it is still heartbreaking. Focusing only on the possibility of the depression/suicide aspect and using his death to talk about depression and how awful it is (and it IS) just may be sweeping another danger under the rug. IMO there isn't enough to rule out the fact this might not be a depression caused suicide, and could be an accident caused by another growing problem ...that could be discussed to help others.

I, for one, certainly took no offense to this post. Course have no agenda here, mainly just read...subjects of intrigue (that are sure to find presence here at WS!) And...I've been thinking lots of Robin Williams lately.

We (generalizing) loved him...back to the Mork & Mindy days. We felt we knew him thru the tube/screen. He made us laugh. He made us cry. He made us FEEL something, when we viewed his performances.

We (generalizing, again) surely did not know him. He was a celebrity...gained fame by his God-given talent. Never a day has gone by...I've wished my children, grandchildren...fame, fortune, nor a spotlight in the public eye. It's about measuring success in a very different manner.

No doubt...the questions of Mr. Williams' suicide will linger...go on, and on, and on. Speculation will rise about EVERYTHING. From the dollar amount of his last bank statement to the color of his underwear. Fascinating fodder to many...and a sleuther's instinct to immediately think 'Hmmm'? about it all.

I feel so saddened, and pray for his children left behind...the spit they must now face with the public masses.

 

[eileenhawkeye]

I feel like the cancellation of his show must have been very hard on him. He was a major movie star who had to take a starring role in a CBS sitcom due to financial troubles. And then for the show to be cancelled must have been devastating. He entered rehab shortly after the cancellation. People say it is a shock and how could someone so happy do this, but there were signs in the past year that his life was not going well, no matter how funny his characters were in movies. No one could have predicted he would kill himself, but it was not a secret that he was having financial difficulties and had relapsed. It might not have been in people's faces, but the signs were there. I feel like people think the Robin Williams (the public persona) of 15-20+ years ago killed himself.

 

[Kensie]

Some people that are around people that are depressed cannot handle it. They cannot relate to the person's depression. RIP Robin. Depression is very serious and so many people do not understand that.

 

[EvilSoup]

This is just awful. Really.

I am sorry you see it that way. But I live it every single day, and I know what it takes. My husband is an addict and my child is special needs. I love them both and my JOB is to be PRESENT for them both.

Sorry if you think caring for those you love is "awful".

I, myself, do not. I think it a gift. These people, for all of their troubles, are my loved ones. And I adore them. They are not burdens, but blessings.

We will have to disagree on this, I see.

 

[Suthrnqt]

Some people that are around people that are depressed cannot handle it. They cannot relate to the person's depression. RIP Robin. Depression is very serious and so many people do not understand that.

Well said, Kensie.

 

[Kensie]

Speaking from experience S.

 

[FruitTingles]

Exclusive: Close friend says actor dreaded making films as they 'brought out his demons'.

He said that despite Williams’ problems, he was shocked to hear the news of his death: “I have been very moved by it, it was not something I expected. I fear his family, while shocked and saddened, may have had more of an idea it was coming.
“His wife was very worried by the end, but she knew what she was getting into with him. Their marriage was great, very strong. It was all about what was going on inside of him.”

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/cel...-resented-having-to-do-new-Mrs-Doubtfire.html

 

[FruitTingles]

didn't see this posted....it's a Facebook posting from the husband of RW's personal assistant
Daniel Spencer
https://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=10152572324824318&id=101399714317

Thanks for posting. The end of that tribute certainly made the tears flow harder:

"But his final conflict was heartbreaking to witness. Oh, if you could only have seen the war raging inside him. It would have stopped your heart. We fought the fight with him, but it left him defeated.
Now our hero has laid down his arms. He has bid his soldiers farewell. The final fight is over."

 

[Lovejac]

Do not judge Robin Williams wife. You may have lived with an addict but you have not gone through a suicide. Families, friends left behind are victims too.

And you know she hasn't gone through a suicide, how?