I wonder who made her feel like that.
IMO GBC was only concerned with his own happiness and if you did not contribute to that happiness you were the problem. True narcissist.
I would say the entire Baden Clay did. I have been trying to write this all day, phones ring, children to pick up, errands to be run, perhaps I will get a fair run now. This is my opinions only and it is something that I have been pondering for a while but crystallized yesterday with the family testimony. I can relate to this because in some ways it reflects my family.
Allison was a cultural person, ballet, languages etc were her strengths but they would not have been prized in the BC environment. There would have been put downs, snide remarks, comments that eroded at her self esteem. Then came the issues of depression, the BC wouldn't have understood that, she needed to snap out of it - a broken leg can be seen and has a defined period of recovery, not so with depression. There has to be some sensitivity in you to be depressed, the BC don't seem to have that trait, even the females.
The name and the prestige that went with it would have opened doors particularly in British society, but also in South Africa, not something Australians take a lot of notice of and something that they smirk at about "poms". The pride though of the Baden name would have been very strong, hence Olivia name change.
Gerard was the third child and the second son, really nothing remarkable and truly the "spare". He would have known all his life that he wasn't as "good" as his brother, but would have strived to prove himself to Dad. I am sorry Toni, but you were just another conquest, he wasn't leaving his marriage for you, and he didn't love you. Telling you to "fall in love" with some else was the ultimate insult I think, he was controlling your life, he didn't want to be with you permanently, but he gave you permission to love some one else, he would always be your greatest love.
Gerard, Allison and NBC lived close, they would have looked after the children, been the first port of call. Allison had been absorbed into there family life, but she wasn't a fully fledged member. She was only Gerards' wife and the mother of his daughters.
No matter what scientific evidence tells us, Allison would have been the one at fault in the conception of three daughters'. Three chances for a son and it didn't happen, and then she was bring up the girls in a feminine manner. Did you notice that the toys in the back of car that were headed for the charity bin were all dolls, prams etc. No Saturday morning rugby for poor old Gerard, but lo and behold, his brother, the heir apparent scores on the first try with a son and heir to the family name. How inadequate poor Gerard must have felt.
We come then to the 19th of April 2012, poor old Allison is sitting in the hairdressers, it is the third attempt to get it right, I would be starting to feel cross. Add to that Olivia and her children are all having a family BBQ at the NBC, she would certain that she is a large part of the conversation and of course the birth of the new baby. She would have liked to have had a son, but finance won't allow it now, let alone the fact that she and Gerard no longer have a sexual relationship. Also Allison can't breastfeed, but I bet Olivia can and Allison feels inadequate each time she see Olivia feeding. Of course that is another expense Allison is responsible for. Then there are the old demons - money and her failing marriage, all Allison fault of course. The conference tomorrow, I am the new girl, will I measure up, will my hair be alright and my clothes, of course Gerard says I'm fat so I won't look good. How many people there will know Gerard, and that his business is in real financial trouble, and then of course the mistresses and my inadequacies as a lover. Poor Allison life must have seemed really horrid that night.
Allison returns home, the children come in and are put to bed. The talk between Gerard and Allison turns to the new baby, "Why wasn't it us Allison?" says a distressed GBC, "oh and by the way, you can't go to that conference tomorrow." "Why?" asks Allison, and then "because Toni is going", "she has only just started her job Allison, you don't have to explain to a boss, but she would" and the conversation goes on. Allison reaches out and scratches Gerard face once or twice, and in self defence the poor man, restrains her and accidental kills her.
The ending is perhaps a bit Mills and Boonish, but I think poor Allison was killed by the hand of Gerard Baden Clay, but her blood is on the hands of all the Baden Clays and her slow painful death took place over many years.
I am reading a book at the moment about Prince Charles and Camilla, and when it was writing that I was struck with the similarities of the two marriages. Thanks for reading, if you have got this far.