I agree Kat, murdered, and/or abused children have always captured my heart, and soul. In all of the decades I've never become desensitized to their pain, and suffering.
While it can be a heavy burden at times to carry, I'm very thankful God has made me to be one who can really FEEL great sympathy, empathy for all others who have suffered greatly.
I wouldn't change one thing either.
So at times like so many of us I have to step away at times to destress emotionally from forums ...especially murdered children.
When I was in the hospital last week for 8 days, I went through the worst emotional trauma I've experienced since an abused child growing up, and what I had to endure from half of the nursing staff, and two of the specialists. Unfortunately my precious hubby had no choice, but to take me to the nearest hospital which is known as the worst rated hospital in our state. He knew I wouldn't have lasted taking me to another one 45 or 50 miles away. We just prayed I would be different, and they would give me proper care. Sadly, it did not happen, and if anything happens in the future I will never go back to that hellhole, and neither will my hubby or family members who also lives here.
I couldn't be more blessed to have an excellent support system with my devoted husband, all 5 children, and dear friends. All have been so upset leading all of them to file complaints with the state against the hospital.
So the reason I posted this information about my nightmare hospital stay is it has left me overlywrought emotionally than I usually feel following murder cases especially when it involves precious children like Evelyn's.
So I know for my own emotional wellbeing I must take even more breaks than normal from her forum. She never leaves my mind or heart though. Evelyn was so precious with such a sweet smile that would light up any room.
Jmhoo
