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BBM - Well, if I have to imagine myself to be OP, I must accept I am a trigger-happy denier of everything that's been proved to me. I must accept it is okay to be reckless, blame other people for my wrongdoings, accuse anyone and everyone (who doesn't agree with my 'version') of lying, assume the world starts and ends with me, shoot a dog in the back of the head after running it over and say nothing to the owner (who is standing right there) shoot a gun in a restaurant (with a child at the next table) and then categorically deny my finger was ever on the trigger, get my friend to take the blame, and then deny I got my friend to take the blame... and so on and so forth.
If I am OP, I know that I must not have anything negative about me reported in the media. My image must not be tarnished, and my sponsors must not have reason to cut me off. I must present an image to the world that is not my real image. My livelihood depends on it. So after murdering Reeva in the toilet after another of my unpredictable outbursts, it is not important to me to call for help. But it is important to me to call people who are not medical experts, remove things from my safe, have my friends and family come over and trample all over the crime scene, ensure one of my phones 'disappears', omit significant information from my affidavit so I can get bail, and then make sure the 'private' memorial I hold for Reeva is released into the public domain.
If anyone reads my book, they can see my mother bought me up to be strong and capable and never treated me as disabled. I have never retreated from danger because 'it is not my personality to do so' and on many occasions I have confronted danger when it was not necessary to do so. I have been the victim of many many crimes, but have never reported them to the police, and one time, when I was almost shot at and had to pull into a restaurant car park to call someone to get me... I could not remember who I called!! And then... having forgot who I called, I could not remember the person who took me back to collect my car the next day, even though I was sitting in their car and talking to them on the way.
To escape a murder charge, I must show the Judge how very vulnerable I am because of my disability and how I am constantly in fear of intruders. It's a shame then, that I forgot to get my window fixed, check if the alarm was working and slept for 5 hours with my balcony doors open. I have no explanation for that - nor can I explain why I didn't have time to think, while also having 'many thoughts'.
The point is the majority of decent human beings are so far removed from OP and they type of person he has proved himself to be, that they can't actually imagine being him. Further, they don't have to put themselves in his position to have an opinion on what he should have done. Even the Judge can't do that. What she can do, however, is to look at his past behaviour of lies, deceit and blame, and decide whether the fairytale he's invented could 'reasonably possibly be true' - and it's my opinion (and many others opinions) it is so improbable, that it cannot reasonably possibly be true.
Fabulous post!