Maybe we need to remember that at this stage the judge is just 'taking it all in'. OP has given his version of events which was then bolstered somewhat (in terms of his actions/reactions) by the evidence of the psychiatrist. That doesn't mean that she and her assessors are going to 'buy' that version when they come to their deliberations, just that they must consider it along with all the other evidence. Remember what retired Judge Greenland said - it's not just coming up with a (barely IMO) believable story, as that verson will either stand or fall on OP's perceived truthfulness along with the evidence of independent witnesses who heard a woman screaming.