Since you asked.. IMO - As to spending time thinking about suicide - to a point yes, but not because they want to die. Then why do they do it? Because they want to stop the pain of living. It can take more courage to live than to stop the pain. But ending a life is a permanent solution.
I have battled severe major depression. I have come to think of it like this line from the movie The Terminator.
Kyle Reese: Listen, and understand. That terminator is out there. It can’t be bargained with. It can’t be reasoned with. It doesn’t feel pity, or remorse, or fear. And it absolutely will not stop, ever, until you are dead.
I think of depression as like my own personal Terminator. I have learned that I can’t think my way out of it. It’s not me thinking anyhow, it’s the depression. It wants me dead. So when I have fallen deep and dark, I just decide it won’t be today. Just not today. The Terminator isn’t going to kill me today. I will live to battle him at least one more day. Do ANYTHING else - if I have to climb in bed, or hide in my house, or if all I can manage today is to make a cup of tea, that’s ok. I won’t let it happen. At least NOT today. I will be messy, but alive. Procrastination becomes my friend. That is the thing about suicide - it’s not one of those things you have to do now or you lose your chance. I mean, you can always do it tomorrow. Then when tomorrow comes, you deal with that and remember that you managed not to do it the day before. Just keep taking baby steps.
ETA: Peace and love to all who suffer. You are not alone.
jmo