That with the alarms f.i. I remember reading on previous threads how people are commenting on the silent alarms - I silent my alarms 15 times a day because they are not relevant. Alarms not sounding are not the equivalent of murderous intentions.
Or her wanting to go back into the room with the most complicated cases - I have done the same several times too. Nursing is a mix of theoretical and practical skills. Practical skills can only get better through - guess what
- practice. Even today if I have a bad experience like an unsiccessful reanimation or a rapidly deteriorating patient, my reaction is that I want to take the next such case because I want to manage such situations better, and the only way to get better at nursing is to do it. I am bad at administration duty so I asked for an extra administration shift. Because I want to get better at it. Not because some sick reason.
But I read in previous threads how people interpret her asking to go back into the same room as a sure sign of her guilt ("reliving her sin for pleasure" or so) or her looking for opportunity to kill more babies.
For me, it is a completely normal reaction to a high stress situation. I did and still often do the same. And I am not murdering anyone
Keeping handover notes at her home was also interpreted as sinister. I do keep handover notes, because I forget about them and bring them home in my pocket. If police would search my home there would be several handover notes with names of patients I have no recollections of anymore. It is suboptimal but we are humans that get very tired at the end of a long, exhaustinh shift. Such things happen.
So these are things I completely understand as a nurse but are mentioned here as red flags and signs of her being guilty.
We all do this - silencing alarms, wanting to practice situations that were less than ideal, or taking home handover notes. These are not red flags, these are just normal things every nurse does. That's what people who are not in health care do not understand and misinterpret.
But as I have told, I did not read all the threads and do not follow closely.
I would be deeply hurt though if my desire to practice a skill to be better at it would be misinterpreted as a desire to kill or relive some terrible scenario.
ETA: this is a personal opinion and not a medical opinion (my previous post was also no medical opinion but my own) but please delete if against tos