To me this is insight into how KC thinks and feels. They all say something about her but these caught my eye the most:
"Lost>My youth, if found please return".....(Why would KC feel her youth had been lost? What happened to cause her to feel that way? I know there are things from CA that we've discussed and I wonder if there is more from other family members that we haven't discussed. We may never know that unless years down the road KC decides to tell her side. Problem is even then we won't know for sure as she is a proven liar.)
"Some secrets need to be kept"......(I only wonder if there are more secrets than the one discovered on Dec 11th? I am sure there are, family secrets and personal secrets. We may never find out what they are.)
"F the police"......(No explanation needed, obvious why KC would feel this way. Could hold double meanings for her. She slept with a couple cops we know of so it could have been a kind of joke plus she could feel this way for the more obvious, straightforward reasons.)
"The media thrives on you"
"Be Insane, well behaved girls never made history"
"Famous"
(There are several more on this subject, this is just a few. Even though KC tells her parents in the jail visitation that she NEVER wanted to be on tv (be famous), I don't believe her. Her PB account proves she thought alot about being famous, possibly by whatever means, whether her original intent was to do away with the rents or by means of Caylee's disappearance and murder. Could just have been a means to the "famous" end for her.)
"Mother when I grow up, I wanna be a B just like you"--(Guess we know what KC thought of her mama. A confused, love/hate thing, intermingled identities going on between those two, esp on CA's part IMO.)
[B]"Harsh words hurt feelings but silence breaks hearts"[/B]---(This one actually is the most telling to me personally. Instead of sticking around after June 15th and whatever took place that evening between KC and CA, she takes off. Cuts her mama completely off not only from herself but more importantly from Caylee. She knew that would cut her mother's heart out to be cut off from Caylee. She did it to inflict pain onto CA, pain that mere words could never accomplish. Maybe KC felt CA had that pain coming from the lifetime of pain she'd had to endure at the hands of CA. Just a thought.)
"Beautiful Garbage"--(This whole family's obsession with looks ties in here for me. KC's daughter had to be beautiful b/c she came from KC, b/c she is a narcissist. But even tho KC thought her daughter physically beautiful she still didn't hold value as a human being to KC. She was just garbage to her. Beautiful garbage. As evidenced by the way she disposed of her.)
:cow: