I think that is the understatement of the year in regards to her misreading his personality. For someone like me and I am going to guess SW as well as nothing has been written about either of her parents being abusive, these traits are absolutely foreign to you. Never met them and wouldn't recognize them if you had in fact. All she has to judge CW on would be her experiences in her life and any gut feelings she may have had about him. In hindsight had she been allowed the luxury of living (sarc) and we asked her if there any signs something was not right with him, she would be able to give us a laundry list of habits, occurences etc which in and of their own mean nothing but taken as a whole would have painted a clearer picture of who he was.
Something I was struck by when listening to her testimonial when considering her chose of words, observing her overall demeanor and body language I came away with a strong impression of how simple she really was. I don't mean that as insult as in simple minded rather, uncomplicated and very easily read. To me anyway. I believe she was a very sincere woman and after viewing her tape saw the very real and vulnerable side of her. Whereas in the short snippets of tape she sounded like a very confident young woman after being able to watch 30 consecutive minutes of her unrehearsed speech, I saw other aspects of her not readily available in the short clips.
I was able to feel the tension she had in her life as well as possible fear in her voice and body language. She was not as nonchalant as I previously believed. Her sensitivity and gentleness came through very clearly. In her attempt to convince others of how to gain control of one's life I shook my head that she actually went outside to say her current chain of thought out loud. Prior to it she had touched on negativity but didn't really elaborate too much on it. When she whisked out to her back deck she revealed what I believe to be a very real aspect of her own life not only that day but MANY days in recent years. She discusses how one needs to tune out the negative aspects or NEGATIVE PEOPLE in their life and despite their words basically soldier on and move forward confident in your path. I can't recall verbatim how she said this all but at one point she even appears to want to say that she is feeling the same with CW but decides not to. I still need to watch it again but it did stand out to me right away. It was also VERY familiar to me to have to leave the room to discuss something honestly and openly which applies to your own partner. Something tells me more then once she accused him of being a very negative person and it was a real trigger for him, so much so she felt she needed to live his immediate vacinity to keep him from hearing her even say the word.
So yes, there is imo some factual fluffery SW used in her posts that on the surface may have appeared to be outright lies if you believe as I do that CW is a negative and narcissistic person. However, I do not take it as an outright lie used to intentionally mislead people or even to inflect some false image of her perfect life, rather I see it as SW using the fluffery to once again stroke CW's very fragile ego by not stating the fact that she lived with the most negative person YET I MANAGE to have come this far. If I can you can. I think the girl is real and VERY open about who she is and does not fear showing her own imperfections but clearly has made a habit of making a conscious effort to protect her narcississtic husband's over inflated ego which is easily damaged. Big difference and is also indicative of a person who is very thoughtful and caring towards OTHER people who have NOT been so open about their weaknesses and faults rather choosing to mislead people about who they really are. Ya know like all their friends thinking he was a nice guy just quiet. Yep, I'm sure he was around THEM.
As I said earlier when I saw his mugshot. I literally said outloud well Hello there because the image is of an angry, unhappy individual that is actually menacing looking. The very face he hid from everyone else. SW saw that face long before he killed her I will guarantee that.
Really wanted to highlight & quote only the parts I agreed with - gotta admit, it was all of it.
I noticed, also,the point in which she goes outside. (relatable behavior) Yes, you are correct (imo), Shanann seems to be a very caring, thoughtful woman, a very open personality. It does seem, on thinking back on that moment when she goes to her deck, she might have been uncomfortable with CW hearing her comments. Trying to get away from the negativity. ..... OMG! She was so full of life! It's just do devastating.
A home full of love & children, at least that's what I believe, that Shanann BELIEVED. Beyond destruction of life, it's pulverizing a sacred trust of children toward their father. I'm haunted by what their last visions were. What were Shanann's last visions? It just haunts me to my core.
You and I both agree that if you've never been exposed to or knowledgeable about anyone like CW - it's like having no defense against it. It might not be like throwing a baby to the wolves ... But, sadly, that's sort of what happened in the end. Just instead of 'the woods', it was a shallow grave and 2 crude oil tanks.
Awhile back,(sorry can't remember who) a poster said that they should teach a class about these types in highschool.
Totally understand that you weren't dissing Shanann. She was a woman who seemed to just discover feeling the exhilaration of life again. (imo)
Thank you for that well written and thoughtful post. ♡
edit: simple spelling of the words: away & do! Lol
