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I will say this though - what I've learned through research and therapy to figure out how to protect my ex and my three, young brothers in law, (my MIL has always actually been nice to me, strangely!) is that people become personality disordered like this usually through abuse, neglect and abandonment and they feel a ton of pain and emptiness.
So is there room for empathy? Yes. It can be hard when faced with the meannnes and cruelty and selfish destructiveness but at core the reasons for who they became and how they suffer are quite sad.
This is beautiful, @gitana1, thank you. It's one of the reasons I stayed with my abusive ex so long; I felt so much empathy for him about what he had been subjected to his whole life--and not just his parents but extended and grandparents on both sides too. Once I realized what my in-laws were and what they had wantonly put their children through, I thought I could reach that poor little boy inside, have a new, healthy family with him where holidays were happy and the family loved and trusted and worked together for each other, but it was too late. He was no longer capable of being loved or loving anyone but himself, and even that was more ruthless self-interest than love. Even after I left him, any kindness is seen as weakness and immediately used as leverage to try again to destroy me.
I still have these moments of empathy, and sad tenderness about the futility of it all, but I know I must stay in hiding with no contact or damage will be done to me and my daughters. It's easier to forgive, though, knowing where the behavior comes from, as you have described. And it's why I wish average folks like Shanann and me had this information--that it was common knowledge--before we started families of our own with PD people from PD families.