So I noticed that both this morning and yesterday morning, that right when I woke up and hadn’t even opened my eyes yet that I had this awful heavy feeling of what I only know how to describe as deep depression. I was barely even awake, yet I could feel this awful depressed heavy feeling. Of course I’ve experienced depression before this, but just noting that the “ick” is starting to peek it’s head out again. I look forward so much to coming here and reading everyone’s posts because it really really makes me feel better.
Now I’m crying LOL.
I think no yoga, been cooped up in here, stress, dread, worry for my family who are elderly and health workers is starting to take a toll. I feel sick.
So, I really have to be aware that this “invisible depression monster” is trying to get under me. I’m going to have to consciously fight this monster it seems. This means, as I’ve talked about before, really doing positive things to bring joy and help resume some sense of normalcy. I’ve been in the house for a month so no wonder I’m starting to lose it.
Goals: Clean and get house back in order.
Some of you may recall from the early days when I said I had a home issue which was going to require workers in the house and everyone advised against it unless it was an emergency. Well here is the deal - I was in the middle of planning to move to a new house.

. But no way I was going to risk movers and a moving truck.
Anyway that all went to crap and I’m stuck here now, which is okay, but I was half packed, living out of boxes so to speak.
So now I have to get settled back into my house. Which will make me feel better, because everything is in disarray.
Thanks is for letting me ramble and thanks everyone for being here.
It’s so important remember during these emotional episodes that there is so much to be grateful for. I have so much. Others had no warning to get themselves food and supplies...