LadyDi~ Sometimes God does work in mysterious ways. I was looking at a totally unrelated post and linked to a story there. What popped up was the story of your precious Ethan and his memorial service. I was dumbfounded to run across it in such a way. (If you don't want me to post it here, I understand and respect your wishes. It was very touching tho.)
I am so proud of you and your family for helping to save others through organ donation. As painful and difficult a decision it is, you will find love and comfort in the lives you have spared and in the hearts of their families. Bless you, your husband, and Bless Ethan for giving others the chance to survive.
I pray you are all doing well as you go through day to day trying to cope with your loss. Always remember there is no right or wrong way to grieve. Everyone experiences it in their own way and no one can possibly know how you feel. All we can do is to be here when you need a kind word, a hug, or need to talk.
Many hugs~
SS~