Chica said:
MYJ and TOL - I just want to express my heartfelt appreciation to the both of you for being so open and honest . . . I get goosebumps when reading your posts . . . I can't even begin to imagine what both of you have gone through/are going through.
God bless both of you, and a BIG thank you!
Thank you very much. It is very difficult to tell the facts of her death ( and we are all, in hindsight and after she was buried, convinced that her husband, who was from a prominent family murdered her) without having enormous grief for her and guilt for being the one who lived.
I try very hard not to take my friends or family for granted.. Laura's murder changed me in ways that I can't say, just like it did her mother, who lost her only daughter, and her dad, who died less than a year later of a massive heart attack- his heart was broken.. Laura was ALL him, his sense of humor, her wicked pranks.. totally her daddy's girl.
I know that there is a great deal of survivor guilt of a type.. because I was also married with small children, it could have been me, and maybe it should have been. She was a Special Education teacher, and what higher endeavor could anyone have pursued?
I never would have thought that my prankster, Homecoming Court queen, petite little friend would grow up to be a teacher, much less a Special Needs teacher. She had so little time to live.. I still wonder " Why her?"
I know Janet's friends and family are going through this in a huge and raw hurtful way. I am so glad this site exists so that they may interact and share and remember in their own ways.
God bless.
Lesa
