Bootsctr and JazzTune thank you so much! I went to a psychiatrist after my son passed. She wants me to go to counseling. I'm more of a bottle it up until it explodes type person. I took myself off all meds and am trying to handle it all myself. But today threw me for a loop. And Anniversary days. And birthdays. And holidays. I made really bad decisions after he passed and now I'm dealing with those. But, hey, at least I'm dealing with them right? I have two more kids that I have to consider. And they are the only reason I am still here.
I guess that's why I hate that she was made to go to work too soon. Ok, don't know if she was made to come back or if she thought it might help. But I was kinda forced so that's tainting my thinking. I hope to get to know her better. Today was her first day at our office and I'm sure it was overwhelming. I wish they would have just quietly brought her in but no they had to tell us her story and tell us (grown adults) to be nice and to help her. I'm pretty sure we could have figured that out on our own...well some of us anyways. She should be able to tell her own story and only to people she feels comfortable with.
Anyways I'm still concerned that we haven't heard from some people! I hope they check in soon! Please be safe!
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Thank you so much for telling us more about you. Can't imagine how hard this all must be.
Please don't beat yourself up for being a 'bottle it all up until you explode' person. You can't help how you feel. You're doing the best you know how, and it sounds like you're actually doing a pretty dang good job.
You're dealing with a nightmare you can't escape. You have the extra agony of facing anniversary dates, birthdays and holidays. It's understandable if you made some decisions you wish you could change.
Yet, you're taking care of your kids, you're going to work, you're dealing with the chaos of Harvey! Plus, countless other things we could never guess.
Though you're hurting, you're not reacting with bitterness toward others as many people do after tragedy. On the contrary, you're always expressing concern and empathy.
Oh, I bet that idiots of all stripes send you through the roof! Tragedy does that. Tolerance for idiots goes way down. (Like the one who told all of you, grown adults, to be nice to the new girl.) You know what's important in life, and it's not wasting one minute of your precious time on them.
Counselors can be helpful. They can allow you a safe place to get it all out. You don't have to worry about THEIR feelings; your own are all that's important.
However, it's not everyone's solution. So you do what feels right for you. Same for medication. It can be helpful too, but it's your decision.
You know your own self the best.
We're glad you're here. Take good care of yourself in the weeks ahead. We want to know how things are going in your area too, so please keep us in the loop...