southernvagirl
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I do not live in what is perceived to be a good area. As a result I need to be ever vigilant with my children. I live in a financially poor household in a neighborhood that is known for having a crack house on every other corner. If I had my druthers I would live in a better home/neighborhood. I have even several years ago been in a situation where I had no gas service (could not afford to pay the bill and it was disconnected). I used electric space heaters for warmth, a crockpot, a microwave and a one burner hot plate for cooking. Was I a bad parent? No. I was a dirt poor parent. My children were housed in a clean home (not counting toy clutter). They were fed nutritious hot food, they were clean and presentable. Is it harder for parents in that position to be "good" parents? you betcha. Is it impossible? No way.
Even "bad" neighborhoods don't mean bad people or parents. I have cultivated my neighborhood. The other mothers on the block who wan't the best for their children and I work together to be the village and support team to help one another. Is our neighborhood as safe as it could be? Nope. Are my children safe? Yep, that is my full time job, making sure of it.
The only "good" years of my youth , off and on,,was spent at my grandmother's house, a God fearing woman, bless her soul,there was no central heating nor ac..My father was suppose to send her $15.00 ( I cant remember if it was per month or week),,,he never did. The only food we ate was what my grandmother grew in her garden, and then canned for the winter..Uncles would bring their squirrel kill by,,,YUK...or fish they caught,,,,we lived in part of shanty town, Grandma would get at at 3 or 4 am to get the coal stove going in the kitchen so I didnt have to dress in the freezing cold before school. My father had remarried and had "another" family, just down the road.....Unfortunately, for me, she had a daughter exactly my age.......Barbra Jean would wear the best clothes to school while I had to wear something from Woolworth or Ben Franklin.....That was MY father not hers ..I know what it is like to have a neglectful father,,,he lived in a very nice house, and yes,,,I still carry that baggage to this day...........BL had a choice and there is no way in h3ll, he sent that baby to momster, so she could be a mom,,,no way...I doubt if we ever hear the real reason,,,,but from my experience and OMO,,it was for very selfish reasons,,,,and I hope he does better with the children he has now,,,,,He still could have a relationship with them now if he wanted to,,,,,,,,,I hope he realizes he has a second chance to realize after this life altering situation,,,that his other kids need a father,,,,but I really think he is all about himself and his own needs to reach out to them...Sure he is doing this now,,,when the cameras are rolling.......He didn't before though did he???..I know his kind and that makes me sick to my stomach that little Shanyia didn't have to go to her death.......He knew exactly where he was sending her,,,,,,,so did the Aunt,,,I don't get it,,,how could this have happened, with so many knowing the possiblities.....I have a feeling when the ME comes out with the autopsy,,,,,there will be even more shock.