IMO this is part of how the puzzle pieces of his character do not fit together.
He admitted long ago, on the Visual Snow board, that he didn’t view his father as a person.
Yet he seems very dependent on his mother in a way that strikes me as quite unusual for a 28-year old man.
I don’t know what that signifies about how he views women overall.
Maybe women are just cardboard cutouts to him, or maybe in his estimation no women can live up to his mother.
Or just part of the derangement, with no sensible explanation forthcoming.
JMO
He wasn’t good in the real social world, and seems to have created a fantasy world where he thrived, and
Was trying to blend the two.
Maybe heroine messes up the brain in this way? Maybe he stays with the limbic system in control rather than rational thought?
I think his relationship with his mother is transactional like a dopamine hit, not relational.
If his mom cut him off and he could get nothing from her, I think she may no longer matter to him. A dog doesn’t love every person holding the food- they just want the food.
Any signs of him being upset are then manipulative tactics to get what he wants.
He can feel, but often stays in humiliation, shame, hate, and anger.
Over the years he seems to have gotten better at controlling his temper, rather than flying off the handle. But in dealing with students it became apparent he could not keep that facade up.
I think he was embarrassed of his parents, his dad was a maintenance man and his mom some kind of teacher aid. BK was educated- he thought he was better than his parents.
So who paid his tuition, food bill, rent, utilities while he was in school?
He is 28, not 12.
So what exactly has he ever done for his parents?
Kind, giving, self-sacrifice… none of those words come to mind with regard to him.
Do his parents simply live and exist to meet his every need? I think so
I think they told him they were proud, he was so smart, they bragged on him, and he took it all in and then turned it on them
His fantasy of great fame and admiration has been popped- all he is left with is… Reality.
IMO