Typically it would be me saying to Toni there wasn’t a future for us together because I was not going to leave Allison and the children and if there was no future, there was no reason continuing now.”
Baden-Clay said he was in the affair “primarily for the physical intimacy, certainly I was flattered at the outset because she looked up to me as a boss, I was getting acknowledgement and appreciation which I hadn’t experienced before”.
“But really it was for the physical intimacy,” he said.
The accused said he attended counselling with his wife, Allison.
“Aside from the physical relationship we were having challenges in our marriage that we were trying to work through because we wanted it to work,” he said.
He said they saw a counsellor recommended to them by their psychiatrist, Dr Tom George.
Baden-Clay said he never revealed that he was having affair because he was “ashamed”.
“I hoped to be able to end it and that would be something in our past that I would never have to deal with and we’d be able to move on,” he said.
He said his wife did not find the counsellor constructive because she felt the woman they were seeing was “taking my side”.
Baden-Clay said his wife spoke to another psychologist, a man, and arranged for him to meet them.
“Allison for years as part of her affirmations and that sort of thing would keep telling herself ‘I’m not depressed, I’m not depressed’ and that was an affirmation she kept reiterating to herself,” he said.
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