I know that we say, "we can only imagine the horror of witnessing and the difficulty of moving forward and away from the tragedy of that Sunday afternoon..".. But honestly we cannot.. The vast majority of us tho, having dealt with traumatic events throughout our lives.. Very, very few have to deal with something as all consuming and horrendous as what your precious soul has had to endure.. And now to find the appropriate way for you to be able to process it, and figure out how to deal with something that is now a part of who you are .. I think it's so important for you to be assured and reassured as much as is necessary that this is in no way your fault.. You are a victim of a monsters evil that culminated that day.. A victim who is not only 100% blameLESS but for you to also know that there are NO *what ifs*.. NONE!! There were no avenues available you and had you by some small way even so much as slightly altered the events as they were happening YOU WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN ABLE TO INTERVENE BETWEEN THIS EVIL FORCE AND THE PRECIOUS BOYS THAT WERE LOCKED IN HIS SITES AND THE ONLY THING THAT WOULD HAVE CHANGED IS THAT HE WOULD HAVE STILL KILLED THE BOYS AND YOU AS WELL.. For me I haven't a single doubt that JP would not have hesitated a millisecond to take you with them in death.. There was NOTHING that could have stopped the evil at the point where you innocently came into this picture..
I do not know your name or I would call you by it now in speaking pointedly and directly to you in hopes that you understand what it is I am saying.. There is a reason that you were not taken, there is a reason as to why your life was spared that day and that is what you must focus on in moving forward in a positive way.. As I said this tragedy is now a literal part of who you are and you must be able to take from it ONLY the positive and not focus on the negative of which is the vast majority of this situation.. Live your life, every single minute of it to the absolute fullest.. On days you don't feel like doing so then think of Charlie and Braden and how their lives being stolen from their loved ones here on earth.. And do it for them.. Live this life for everything it's worth 10times over for little Charlie and Braden.. They are with their beautiful momma now who at the very instant that this monster snuffed out the boys earthly lives they were immediately reunited with their mother's arms wrapped tightly and securely around them both..ushering these 2 precious angels into the mighty gates of heaven.. Charlie and Braden will never cry, feel fear, pain, or heartache again.. Do not grieve your life away for them.. Take solace in knowing these precious boys are more than ok, they're by their mother's side filled with joy, love, and happiness.. Take the peace that can wash over you freeing you from the binds of unfair guilt that this monster heaved upon you..
Do not let evil have this hold or power of you, your life, and your happiness by smothering you and binding you down with tremendous guilt for something that was beyond your control.. That happened by no fault of your own..
The evil force took two beautiful lives and souls from this earth on Sunday..Please do not allow a third to be taken in evil taking control of your life and soul by consuming you with guilt and blame.. You are in no way at fault, and are another victim that this evil individual has inflicted on so very many already..
My prayers for you and your family in these coming weeks, months, years as you find a way to accept this as being an actual part of you.. But a part that can be dealt with, stored in a compartment and allowing you to move forward in a positive way.. It is possible and you absolutely can do it in taking it one step at a time in beginning the healing process..
(((((HUGS))))))
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