I'm having to really take my time with Cindy's depo - take it in small doses. It's the first time I just haven't been able to read or listen to her straight through. All those times I went straight through have taken their toll on me. And I mean that literally.
Anyway, I'm about halfway through part 2. There are two things that have struck me throughout:
- Cindy always says 'we'. Doesn't matter who she's referring to - George, Casey, Lee, Caylee, or any combination thereof - it's always 'we'. Not George did this and then I did that, or Lee did that and then Casey did this. It's always 'we'. She's melded the entire family into a single entity, from which she can't separate herself. Her self.
I don't know if this makes her feel more powerful, by trying to make sure whoever she's addressing think they are always dealing with numbers of people, rather than just with Cindy. I wish I knew why she does this.
- Cindy takes every and any opportunity to accuse everyone of everything, no matter how farfetched. She just doesn't pass up a chance to accuse every single person who comes up, or who she can bring into the conversation. Everyone has done something wrong. Except her daughter, who has lied, stolen, used her, and murdered her baby. It's mind blowing.
The contrast is striking, shocking even. These ordinary people living ordinary lives - the friends, LE, the SAs. They haven't hurt a soul. So many of them are all about helping others. And Cindy spares not a one.
But her daughter, who is so without morals or conscience, in all this, gets not a single lash of Cindy's tongue.
I just don't know how this can be.
There are a number of individual and specific things that have caught my attention, but these two recurring 'themes', pervasive throughout this long deposition, strike me again and again as I read.