Yes, I think exactly that, tried to steady herself.
It's harrowing.
Which is why the Defense is trying to draw attention away from it. Pretend it's something else.
She was standing when she received the first of at least three deadly blade wounds.
Anyone who thinks one man couldn't have done this crime -- a man in Wisconsin was just sentenced to 20 years for reckless homicide, among other charges, after a single explosive (series of) violent act(s), killed one young adult, eviscerated another and injured others -- crazy fast, with a knife.
What those two young girls felt, saw, experienced and endured is hard to comprehend. Forced to undress, an assault unto itself. The terror and humiliation, suddenly 18 minutes is an eternity and the fear unrelenting anfd the wounds ferocious.
The only sacrifice that day, maybe the soul of the man who would do such a thing. Butchery.
There came that moment when they knew they were going to die.
I'm taking 18 minutes of silence tonight to let that sink in.
JMO