Here are some of the things JA will spew out today. Using her creepy little girl voice, of course:
I wish I were dead. I wish I had committed suicide. I wish I had never been born.
I've let everybody down. My family and friends are saints for supporting me.
All I ever wanted in my life was to be a good person. I always considered myself a good and decent person.
I had a tough time growing up. I didn't feel loved or supported (I don't blame my parents, just saying how I felt). I sacrificed everything for men. I've had low self-esteem. I wish I had gotten help for my problems.
I loved Travis. He was a wonderful man in many ways. I wish it hadn't come to this. I wish I had died that day. Worthless human that I am.
I really loved Travis We had a love/hate relationship. There was a lot of passion and emotion in our relationship. I never meant to hurt him that day. I felt as though my life were in danger that day. Even if that was not the case. (This goes back to everything I've been through since I was a kid. I've always felt like I had defend myself against everyone, against the world.) I never meant to hurt Travis. I can't remember much of that day. It's all a blur. I didn't realize I was hurting him. I blanked out and went on some sort of auto mode. I wish I had died instead.
I hope Travis' family has some peace now. I never wanted to say anything bad about Travis. I wish I had kept quiet about that. In any case, God has forgiven him for his flaws. No one is perfect.
Again I wish I had died that day. I wish I had not lied so much. I still wish to die but my heart hurts for my family. They will just wither away out of sadness and guilt if I'm sentenced to death. My father who has cancer will not be able to take the anguish. I want to die but for their sake I ask that I'm given the chance to live, even it's behind bars. I will try and be a better human being.
I wish I were dead. I wish I had committed suicide. I wish I had never been born.
I've let everybody down. My family and friends are saints for supporting me.
All I ever wanted in my life was to be a good person. I always considered myself a good and decent person.
I had a tough time growing up. I didn't feel loved or supported (I don't blame my parents, just saying how I felt). I sacrificed everything for men. I've had low self-esteem. I wish I had gotten help for my problems.
I loved Travis. He was a wonderful man in many ways. I wish it hadn't come to this. I wish I had died that day. Worthless human that I am.
I really loved Travis We had a love/hate relationship. There was a lot of passion and emotion in our relationship. I never meant to hurt him that day. I felt as though my life were in danger that day. Even if that was not the case. (This goes back to everything I've been through since I was a kid. I've always felt like I had defend myself against everyone, against the world.) I never meant to hurt Travis. I can't remember much of that day. It's all a blur. I didn't realize I was hurting him. I blanked out and went on some sort of auto mode. I wish I had died instead.
I hope Travis' family has some peace now. I never wanted to say anything bad about Travis. I wish I had kept quiet about that. In any case, God has forgiven him for his flaws. No one is perfect.
Again I wish I had died that day. I wish I had not lied so much. I still wish to die but my heart hurts for my family. They will just wither away out of sadness and guilt if I'm sentenced to death. My father who has cancer will not be able to take the anguish. I want to die but for their sake I ask that I'm given the chance to live, even it's behind bars. I will try and be a better human being.