When you think about it, it' almost like the first thing Knox wanted to do when she arrived in Italy was break the laws. Smoking pot was her vice, and that was one of the first things she located in Italy - friends with access to drugs. She apparently wrote in her book that one of the first points that she and Sollecito established was the mutual vice of drug abuse. She probably established the same common interest with Guede. The next thing she did was take a job, even though she was not legally entitled to work in Italy. When her roommate was murdered, she voluntarily went to the police station and falsely accuses an innocent man of murder. Within 6 weeks of Knox's arrival in Perugia, we hear from her mother that Knox is stuck a backwards, medieval town in Italy, falsely accused of murder by a crazy prosecutor that turns a blind eye to police brutality.
After Knox's description in her myspace page about Berlin, where she also burned bridges, it's not much of a stretch to question how far she wanted to go without being accountable.
Otto, I know you have posted before about Amanda's feeling of jealousy for her roomates. A lot of people have problems understanding what a motive would be for Amanda. Even though there is no need to prove a motive, but it's just natural reaction for everyone, including me.
I feel, MOO, that Amanda was a very insecure person. Perhaps still is, but I don't think as much now because probably all of the attention has boosted her self-esteem. She took great pride is being "different" and not like the "typical" girls. She thought "those girls" were shallow, and
she had a superior intellect. I really believe she thought this. I'm not talking about just the roomates, I'm talking about girls in general. And she also took pride in voicing her opinion and not being afraid to voice her opinion, and to say how she felt, even if it was not the "right" thing to say at a certain moment.
So here she goes to Perugia, where she's roomed with what
she perceives as being very "typical" girls. These girls are more lady-like, modest, and mature than her. They have fun, but know where to draw the line. Amanda didn't know where to draw the line. She thought it was ok because she was just "liberal" and they were just too conservative, but in reality it stemmed from her low self-esteem. And probably deep down, she knew this. She kind of secretly wished she could be more like them, be able to draw that line, but she just couldn't. This led her to sometimes get into things too deep.
Most people can't understand that. They don't realize that she probably didn't want to be like that, she just couldn't control herself. She didn't have "normal" abilities of moderation. The others could do drugs and not go in too deep, perhaps a few joints every now and then. Amanda couldn't do that. I am sure she probably experimented with some (or maybe a lot) of hard drugs in Perugia, not just marijuana (MOO).
All of this led to a kind of jealousy of Meredith and probably the other girls in her villa as well. Kind of a simmering kind of thing, which just exploded one night with the influence of hard drugs and alcohol and shady people.
JMO.