Hello, you guys, I can't believe it's been a month since I pulled up Websleuths.
After Hurricane Isaac I finally maxed out I guess with physical and emotional exhaustion & just shut down. There were a lot of things I let go during the Summer of Mickey and so I guess the month of September was a month for me to just mentally & emotionally check out. I didn't intentionally do it, but it happened anyway. Have been having a lot of trouble sleeping and just an overall unwell feeling that I suspect has something to do with how greatly the turmoil surrounding Mickey's loss has affected me, and others I am sure.
I am trying to bring myself to go to the memorial tomorrow. I really feel so burned out that the thought of it makes me weary, and I find myself ashamed. If I am feeling like this, how much more of an effort will it be for the Shunicks to see so many people to whom they feel indebted, when they surely are sunk in the depths now of not seeing their dear sister, daughter, niece, etc. for these four months already?
Of course it's also slated to be pouring rain. I also feel like I want to leave the Shunicks to their privacy. But then I remind myself that they have had awhile now to grieve more privately, and so we as a community now have one more chance to lift them up in prayer and commisery, to remind them that they are not alone in their grief.
I am still amazed at the outpouring of love, concern, effort, heart soul from our community, and from the Websleuths community. No one rested until Mickey came home - a profoundly sad, wrenching, and proud event that never could have happened, but for love....
OT, I'm afraid, but . . .
Chicken Fried, I'm so happy to see you're semi-okay! All on Websleuths have been worried about the locals, the hurricane coming so closely after all the tragedy of the previous few months. I, like you and many others here, have been totally ding-dongy, cranky, & crying like a baby over this tragedy. Then all the emotions from Aug. 18, 2008 to April of 2009 came flooding back, the months my child was missing. I, as I know all did, wanted things to turn out so differently for Mickey. And I've had such a hard time accepting that they didn't. As a mother, I had my miracle, why didn't Nancy? It's truly been amazing to see the grace of the Shunicks. And yet, their pain will linger on forever.
I hope you get to feeling better, Chicken Fried, and that's truly from the heart. I feel I know you all and although tomorrow is to be a true celebration for a tiny little hero, I know you locals and others traveling there will celebrate her life in true "Mickey" style. Those of us who didn't get to meet Mickey in person have come to know her in our hearts. That's largely due to the lovely locals who shared her with us and yes, we came to love Mickey, the Shunicks and all of you down there.
My tears I have to admit, have flowed all summer and I just can't seem to get out of this dump, and my feelings can't even compare with those of Nancy and Toms' . . . I know this. But all of us here will in time heal, not ever forgetting the efforts of the family, community and our community on Websleuths to find everyone's child and bring her home. She's home now, not as we wanted, but she lives in everyone's heart. So celebrate tomorrow all of you, I'm taking the liberty of saying IMO everyone on WS's that couldn't be there are with you!
And if any of you see Nancy, Tom, Charlie or Zack if possible, give them a hug if inclined. Love and a hug never hurts anyone, especially now. And when the night draws near, you go to your homes, hug your loved ones, and yes, your animals too. Mickey would! Because you never know when you'll see them last.
Goodnight and good morning and all of you take care of yourselves and have a wonderful and joyful day! Then when it's over we can't forget the other Mothers looking for their children to come home, because every missing person is someone's child. Your help is invaluable to the missing of America.
I so apologize for being so maudlin this morning. My emotions have been all over the place and haven't been able to sleep.
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