Ok. I am taking a deep breath and with a heavy and reluctant heart, am going to read back through posts. Many of you know I had a heart attack and was comatose for a bit...in fact the day I was discharged from the hospital was the day they confirmed the remains were Mari's. I am having a very difficult time with her death....despite not knowing her personally, I came to feel like she was one of my kids, just like Sarah and Edgar. I was unable to attend the mass and vigil and don't really feel like I've had closure....like it just isn't real yet. I pulled her flyers out of my trunk the other day and just sobbed. Sounds silly considering the level of my involvement, I know...but very real. Even writing about it is making me cry. Maybe I'll wait a bit longer.
There is nothing I know that you don't. I am not in the loop any longer. I expect I will be notified by family if an arrest is made or when COD is determined, but even if I find out anything about the investigation, of course I can't post it here. We WILL find the b^*#ar$ that did this and bring him to justice, that's a promise.
I miss you all so much. It is just so hard to come here. Between Mari and Marcus (and my team was also on Aleah's case, but I had not personally gotten involved yet), this has been a rough month. I am rethinking whether I should actually continue looking into missing persons. I just don't know.
So thank you all for everything...I will catch up soon.
