And I disagree again. I was replying to what was going through his mind while he was driving with his dead wife on the floor of his truck and two young children in the back seat, one of which was talking to him.... So everyone thinks Chris had time to think about NK during this trip when he was probably thinking of how to dispose of his wife's body, keep his child calm, drive down the road, think up alibi's....wonder if those pictures was an alibi plan? Remember his text while at SW memorial service? (funeral)? He told her he was overseas? Who knows the lies he told her with those pics being taken?
Who knows....but thinking of his mistress at this point was probably the last thing on his mind. IMHO at the end of the day she was JUST SEX.... SEX is not love, though maybe he isn't equating that at the time, it's still just that.
I was not speaking after the fact though. Sure he could have been thinkin NK after the fact.... However I really really do not believe at the time he had his dead wife in the truck with his children driving to a place where he needed a plan and alibi, all the whilst stirring in in emotion of anger, she was at the forefront of his mind.... he killed his kids for GOD's sake....was he thinking on NK and their sex and lovey dovey relationship while strangling two innocent children? I think NOT...sry I don't buy that NK was on his mind at all at that moment in time.
BBM. I think he specifically equated sex with love. This would be typical for a teenager, of course, but Chris is an emotional teenager.
I remember he initially named a very specific thing as the trigger for the killings, and it was not quarrelling with Shanann.
He said that when she came home at 2:30 and they had sex, "it felt different".
How can one interpret it? He had six weeks of sex with a new lover, and when he has sex with his pregnant, tired wife, it feels...how? Not as good? Did he think, "bad sex"?
So on one hand, good sex, on the other, all his life, with multiple stressors, but a family, his family...
And he kills this family because sex feels different.
MOO - he was always thinking of his mistress, he did it to be with her, because he did not want to do that forthcoming trip with his family, because he was afraid that NK would find someone or felt that the relationship had no future. It was almost hopeless attempt to keep her.
I always wonder how much he preplanned. At times, when I see the court photo of him with open mouth, he looks idiotic, detached, one really wonders if he gets it. Then I think he was in some dissociative state when killing them. I want to say, you fool, you strangled your wife, drove kids and her body to Andarco, where you smothered your kids, shoved their bodies in oil tanks, buried your wife, took a dump, made a photo of a flower for your mistress, then drove home to face all this music. Told in the interview that the kids were "all your life". Ordered pizza for dinner. Now you read the Bible to the empty cell. Do you even get it, what you have done?
And then there are other times, when I remember the photo of him and Shanann, with his hands behind her neck. And I am starting to think that with Shannan, he was dreaming of strangling her for a while, and maybe what stopped him was the thought that "it was not OK" to kill the kids. And then he found the way.