So much about this trial, killing, the after math, the brutality/method of the killing of Travis Alexander, bothers me, still.
I am not one who can reason that people are just evil. Not with babies born so tender and I believe innocent. For me and my reasoning "evil" is created. And I am left wondering how a JA was created. What happened, what was the road that lead to someone being able to do what she did? For me such violence goes against everything inside of me.
All that aside. Can you imagine: cleaning a man's house you used to date, supposedly loved, are still having sex with. While he gets ready and goes out on a date with another woman. She says she laid down and fell asleep, and in doing so was there when he got back. Right , one can see thru that that she was waiting. Your self respect has to be so low to do that .
All of the spying, retaliation, plotting, wanting his friends for her friends. How desperate, crazy, and exhausting.
Crossing so many boundaries, into the man's emails, bank accounts, Facebook.
It sickens me to imagine/think of it.
All the way thru all of this crap to killing him, not just killing him, but over and over and over. Who can stab someone 29 times, let alone what she did to his throat?
Now sitting in jail she cannot stop, even from there.
I know she is not worth me giving this my thoughts. But, it all haunts me.
The under currents of life.
Being a person, a human, a woman, I just don't understand it.