I just wanted to say a few words.
Thank you to everyone who kept this thread going for over two years. They have been a long two years for many people, but I wanted to affirm that watching people come together, across national and cultural and even political and ideological boundaries has been affirming despite there being no comfort or closure for those placed at the mercy of this crime.
Sometimes there will be cases where witnesses, informants, loved ones, or even victims themselves can only watch silently as social media and news stations play a game of telephone, trying to piece together that which is known publicly as best as they can with the information provided, or lack thereof.
I do not speak for investigators, law enforcement, or members prosecution. I also do not speak for the family, who should be the human focus, not the criminal seeking attention. I speak as a woman who has learned how to find meaning in life only after seeing the anguish left in the wake of death. I will never feel ordinary again because I have learned the deep-seated strength it takes to love with grace and measured humility from Ms. Zhang’s family, and I hope to honor her memory by continuing her legacy of being someone who wants to help.
Please exercise caution when considering words that come from the man who has been convicted. Please do not give him the satisfaction of having a name at the cost of a life that was never his to take. And please continue to treat all those involved with investigations with respect. They could be watching.
The actions of one man will never reflect any communities that are scapegoated for criminal behavior. I would ask that anyone reading this afford GRSM (Gender, Romantic, and Sexual Minority) communities and their members with respect. There is much outrage in these communities about the behavior of a criminal incorrectly claiming to be part of any such honor bound cultural community. I would ask the same respect be extended to those who cope with substance abuse and mental health issues. There are many who cope with these difficulties without committing crimes.
I did my best on the stand to not draw attention to myself, but to be a voice for what I experienced as objectively as possible. I was only there to be a face for the information I was provided by the man convicted of the crime. In the process, however, I expended conscientious efforts to not promote the scape-goat mentalities that have harmed many throughout history.
I have given all I can to this case.
All of you have my deepest gratitude for having the tenacity to keep these threads going and for the respect you have shown.
Life is too short to be ordinary. Please live YingYing Zhang’s wisdom in your own lives to honor her.
TEB