Devastated. Weeping. The police chief, was clearly in anguish. He did not read. I am visual. He told, the world, what happened. He told the world how "his guys" did what they did.
He told and showed the world, at how these guys, ran around , unprotected, from bullets. They stood in the line of fire, and three of them are dead. three more dont know.
It was the most moving presser I have ever experinced. He wants the world to know what happened to his friends. He wanted the world to know , how they stood out there, in the wild openess, when some person is shooting.
They ran all over the place trying to stop this.
Am I fan of LE - not. I have been abused by them. My freinds have been. My gay community has been in the 80's.
I am capable of moving -- are these men heros, after watching this press conf - totally. I can not imagine, maybe some of my tears are related to the "openess" of running around, with no buildings to hide behind- they still ran towards.
As it went on, they knew he was fine to kill them. By that I mean they saw cooleagues killed and shot, but they kept, with no cover, running towards.
Cleaning up here, have Kleenex, it was devasting.
Will I be capable of forgiving the abuse experienced , nah.Has the last 15 minutes changed my emotionial state as it relates to this event. The only answer I have is yes. It is painful-
I am sorry, I can not get a grip on him, cause of my profession, often I can. He is just I do not know the words, or the understanding, he is one of the most scary "things" --- the more that comes out the more confusing it gets.
. That is not how, in any instance about anything , usually how it works. Information typically adds understanding.
It is not happening- it gets worse and worse , more confusing, and harder to grasp.
It is becoming, more and more ****$d up. It is , at its worst , distressing, we need to , at some level, "get" some understanding of "what"
Why?
It is truly, truly, messed up
IMO