I was thinking of going but decided not to. I'm tired, and also I don't want to take a seat that maybe a friend of Mickey's might occupy. I trust that someone here will make it in and give a report. For me, curiously, all I would want from attending would be to hear BSL's voice, if indeed he does appear. I don't know why, but the voice would complete the picture. Also, I have had a lot of very bad luck in my life, some of which seems almost like I'm being afflicted. I don't think it's wise for me to even be in the same room with BSL, as we had a lot of the same bullying, alienation, rejection, unhappiness, etc., growing up, conflicted relationships with women, both considered a bit odd, work on old cars, etc., etc., because I don't think it's wise for me to be exposed to any sort of bad vibes that may try to attach themselves to anyone in the room. As well, if any of the family would make a statement, the sadness of hearing that would be so great that it would depress me greatly. I know that all sounds kind of weird. I'm just following my instinct not to go. I will leave my confidence in the hands of the court.
:candle: for Mickey
